Once they had all left, I gradually began to unpack my worldly goods. I didn't have much, but what I did have was important.
It was stupid stuff really.
A cool guitar pick that I'd picked up in the subway, a pack of cards I'd learned to do a few magic tricks with in seventh grade, a lucky quarter that I used for everything and a silver anarchy symbol attached to a black chord.
I put all of these things in a drawer between a hoodie and a pair of jeans. After putting away all my belongings I put the suitcase in the closet and looked around. The room was beginning to seem more friendly, I guess.
Not that I needed a room to be friendly but at least it didn't feel as much like jail cell anymore.
As I began to hang the posters up with small tacks, I started to get a tune in my head. I hummed it quietly as I randomly hung my music life across the blank wall.
The tune deepened into something catchy, but not quite annoying.
Quickly, I got out my guitar and began to pluck the strings. Gradually I figured out the melody.
Then I started a staring contest with a piece of paper.
What could I possibly write about?
My life was interesting but a depressing mess. Who wanted to hear about that? Who would even care in ten years?
I sighed and fell back on my bed, still clutching the notebook to my chest.
Who would care in ten years... I think.
That's certainly something to write about.
Scrambling for a pen I begin to write the lyrics that come across my head.
"Wanted dead or alive, not a soul will dare. Emotion's a joke, don't get too close..."
I whispered the lyrics to myself, then gradually began to sing it along with the tune. It was sounding... Well, good.
If I admitted it to myself, I was shocked.
An hour or so later I had something pretty concrete on paper and a guitar melody to go with it.
Somehow it didn't sound exactly right though.
Would it be cheating to ask Joseph to play drums with me?
Probably.
I shrug and pull out my phone. It didn't have a great camera, but it was alright for this purpose.
I situate it with the desk as a sort of tripod thing and sit on the bed. My posters are in the background and I'm rather proud.
It starts to record and I start to play, singing along. The song is so completely raw.
The lyrics are from a spot in my mind that I hadn't used enough, the video was unedited, the song was extremely new and the song meaning was too deep for anyone to get but myself.
Raw.
As I was uploading it, YouTube asked what the title of the video would be.
Technically it would be James Armstrong in a week.
It had a nice ring to it, but it didn't feel like me. I wasn't an Armstrong. I was a Dexter.
So, I typed that in.
"Dead or Alive, By: Red Dexter"
Red Dexter had an edge to it, like Marylin Manson, Gerard Way or Billie Joe. Easy to remember, easy to talk about.
With a large gulp of air I press the upload button and wait for it to load.
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The Jesus of Suburbia
FanficRed, known by the court as James Kiane Dexter is normal for a punk rock, sex loving, drug abusing, alcoholic seventeen year old. He remains unchanged through vicious therapy that they say will tame him. It doesn't. When his mother dies an offer to a...