I don't know...maybe it's actually a good thing that I don't have anyone who loves me...I can finally stop hurting people..and about that thing i wrote about in you before..that's gonna hurt people too..but people are gonna find out one way or another..so after I talk to my dad..i might write it in here just to kinda have it out there...also..the more I think about it the harder it gets..I mean that on my mind plus Ruth being a bitch led to me finally blowing up on her...now the entire class has a completely different view of me..I know they do...even Savannah told me that she never expected me to do anything like that because I barely talk..I don't know...UUGGGGHHHHHHH
