dear regulus,
i'm sorry.
i'm so fucking sorry.
i knew you weren't yourself.
i knew you weren't okay.
and i did nothing.
i doubt i'd have helped you anyway.
you were kind to me. always.
no matter how much they laughed at me, you never did, even though i knew you thought i was weird.
maybe that's what made me love you.
that's probably why i always will.
i know i meant nothing to you but you meant everything to me. you still do.
i was right about you. i always knew there was more to you than they all said, more than you showed them.
but now you're gone.
no more laughter,
no more smiles,
no more you.
but i was wrong about you too. i said i'll see you again. but i was wrong. so so wrong. because you're gone. and i have to accept that. we all have to accept that. but i don't want to.
i know you'll never really be gone.
not to me.
i love you regulus black, and i always will...
until the very end.
