Looking back, I can say that I enjoyed my childhood. I experienced those fun moments na dapat nae-enjoy ng isang bata. Sumali ako sa iba't-ibang events, different contest. Gusto ko kasi yun. Yung napapakita ko sa iba yung talents and skills ko.
As I reminisce those specific moments in my childhood, there is one thing I've noticed. You were always there. Sa lahat ng mga yun andun ka pala.
Nung laban ko sa buwan ng wika, habang kumakanta ako nakita kitang pumapalakpak. Hindi ako pwedeng mag-kamali ikaw yun. Lilima lang kayong audience nun kasi halos lahat mas ginustong umuwi nalang o kaya manuod na lang ng ibang contest. Pakatapos pa nga ng contest nilapitan mo pa nga ako tapos sinabi mo na mas magaling pa ako dun sa nanalo. Na dapat ako yung first at hindi third.
Nung laban ko sa quiz sa english, naghintay ka nun sa labas ng classroom na pinag-examan ko, right? Tinanong mo pa nga ko nun kung na-perfect ko ba yung exam. Tumawa lang ako, as if naman na mananalo ako thinking na may contestant na galing sa pinamataas section.
Magkasabay tayo nung nag- audition sa choir. Sa sobrang kaba ko pa nga nun muntik na akong mag-back out but you told me not to. Sabi mo sakin, ikaw nga na di marunong kumanta susubok ako pa kayang talagang kumakanta. Luckily, I passed the audition but you didn't. But I saw you smile, the kind of smile na aakalain ng lahat na ikaw yung natanggap.
Joining ati-atihan was not really my plan yet dahil na rin ata sa gusto kong takasan ang boring na lessons ng mga teacher natin nun, I decided to join. Sobrang na-enjoy ko yung practice and syempre yung privilage na ma-excuse sa klase. I remember you giving me those reason para wag na kong sumali like, hassle sa schedule, madami akong mami-miss na lesson and a lot more pero di mo ako na-convince. Every practice after class nanu-nuod ka. You were there every single day.
The performance day came and once again I was very nervous. I was afraid to make a mistake and to be the cause of our group's defeat. For the nth time you were there. Doing those funny faces you always do every time I'm nervous. It's funny how that face turns into a frown when you saw me wearing my costume. You said teachers supposedly not allow us to wear that kind costume. It is somehow reveal our tummy and it doesn't look good on us especially on me. Yet, you have nothing to do then. It was too late to protest on that costume since it's already the performance day.
I did my best. I tried so hard not to be the cause of our loss. I know you saw it nasa unahan ka nun and you can definetely see everything. Nakita mo naman ata yung determination ko to think na I caught you looking at me several times.
When they announced us as the winner you were the one who told me that you never doubted na mananalo kami. And to quote what you have said " We made the best performance compared to others. "
You were my number one supporter. You supported me all through out. There are times that you didn't like my decision yet you still chose to support me.
Second Regret: I should have been less numb. If only I notice the signs more earlier than I did di na sana ako nahulog. Maybe naka- iwas ako sa sakit. Stupid me for being so much numb.
