See me beyond my dreams (Jesy Nelson au)

Chapter 3: We need to talk

A/n note: New chapter out, I know it's pretty short but hope you like it anyway. - Karin :)

"Is Jesy in there we need to talk?" It was barbara’s voice.

"Ehh yeah I get down okay wait a minute."

"Fuck that she disturbed us excuse must go." She gave me a kiss on the cheek opend the door quietly I heard how she went down the stairs and Barbara's questions about what she was doing in there.

All I really wanted was to Jesy would have ignored her voice and we had been sitting still in here. But I was happy anyway because I got the kiss I waited so long for. I was still unsecure if the kiss mean nothing more. How would it be, if it would be something? We would then need to keep secret?. I opend the door and get out slowly So no one would see me.

"Hey what have you been? You missed the cake," said Eric.

“Oh cake Elin is hungry for cake." I did not really care about the cake because I'd had more fun things for me. But I could not say to Eric so I tried to pull myself out of the conversation and not have to answer the question of what I been. I went to the cake table. Luckily I managed myself out .

I smiled at Jesy  who winked back . Then she went away and disappeared. A few hours later , I was looking for Jesy to say goodbye . I went through the crowd and saw a little longer Jesy just kiss a boy on the couch Huh? ! I thought the kiss we had meant something? All she said was just to make me happy? Or what? I was disappointed in myself . Did she want to be anything more or see me after school then she actually ned to show it , I thought.

I said goodbye to my friends and told that Mom called and I had to hurry home. I wanted to go home and think about myself. Did not want to talk to anyone. As I slowly walked home, I wondered what would happen on Monday. It sounded from the mobile I took it up from the bag. Income text from Jesy

"Hope you had fun tonight, thanks for the romantic kiss hahah, Sorry that I could not say goodbye before you went. xxx ;) /Jesy "

What should I answer? Ignore her or say something nice and cute like if I never seen what happens. Or should I say what I saw and let be mad at her? No, I would not care about the text message and go home.

When I arrived, the house was quiet all had gone to bed. The time was 2:30 at night. I was so tired. Luckily then I diden't put on makeup, because I'd never bother to remove it. I put on the light to the bathroom and looked at me. A tear fell down my cheeks as I almost never cry. After trying to brush my teeth while tears came down my cheeks. I stopped and went back to my room. I'd just turned off the lights and started to sleep, but instead I put on the world's saddest song and cried. No, stop, I can't cry, I cry almost never. I said as I wiped my tears away and turned off the lights. Woke up to a message but did not respond, did not even look who texted I fell asleep shortly after.