It's all me

Chapter 7

Guysss I'm so sorry for not updating on here sooner I didn't know where I was going with the story, got busy with my studies and nobody was really reading it, but nonetheless here's chapter 7. Hope ya l like itttt!!

I wandered in and out of shops. Gazing in awe at the shelves stacked high with so many amazing things that I had always dreamed of. Aaron was walking behind me, laughing at how funny it was that I had never seen all of this cool stuff before.

He had hold of around 4 bags filled with clothes that he had forced me to buy, stating that I looked absolutely amazing in them. I hadn't wanted him to spend any money on me, I mean. I was a random girl he'd met on the streets. Why did he want to be nice to me? Wait... what did he want from me?

It clicked. I'd got so caught up in the excitement of having people who I thought may actually care for me, that I hadn't realised the reality of the situation. Nobody had a pure, clean heart. Nobody truly cared unless there was something in it for them. What were they trying to achieve from me? What did I have?

My mind was whirring. Thinking of all the possibilities. All the worst possible scenarios.
"Helloooo? You there? Everything Okay?" Aaron's voice snapped me back to reality.
"Oh snap. Sorry. Was just thinking" I stated, trying to force a smile on my face.

I needed to get away from him. What if he was planning on hurting me? What if he was just like my parents? I shuddered at the memory of my childhood. 'Why not just run away from them? Or maybe you could hurt them? Yes yes hurt them.' I heard one of the voices in my head say. It didn't sound like any of the others. Maybe the "mad" girl had cooked up another voice that wasn't there. I thought to myself. Chuckling a little. I was just imagining things. There's no other stupid voice. Just me being silly. 'no no no , I'm here my dear.' The voice was so much different to the rest. It had a sinister vibe coming from it. I didn't like it one bit. It gave me a really bad feeling, and I generally tended to be right when it came to having bad feelings about things.

I tried to focus on the rest of the shopping trip with Aaron. I continued looking in all the shops, and we even decided to get ice cream. I ordered a large "Mint Choc Chip" icecream with whipped cream and chocolate sauce. It was delicious, nothing like I'd ever had before. It was cold and sweet and gave me a slight buzz whilst eating it.

I talked to Aaron, trying just trying to take my mind away from my own biggest enemy, but, I just couldn't bring myself to feel completely content, because there was a small thought in the back of my mind, that was haunting me, and it had been my whole life. Only now had it decided to come to the forefront of my mind.

My mind liked doing that. Making me feel so low, so alone, when I was at my happiest points. My personalities, they just couldn't leave me be. They couldn't let me be happy. They didn't care. Nobody cared. I just wanted to disappear. Like I'd never existed. I wasn't wanted. I wasn't needed. At least, that's how I felt.

Spook there ya having it huyssss. Chapter 7. Hope you liked it. Do tell me how I can improve, What you'd like to read about next and also whether it's worth continuing with this story. Sorry again for the long waitttt. And I really need to get into writing again
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