Ember's Diary.

Chapter 4 (mom's POV) Worries

I look out the window of the looking room and watch my kid's play in the yard. It must be harder on them then it is on me. I knew from a young age that Daniel wanted to be a marine. There was nothing i could do the stop that and i didn’t wan to. I’m proud ob him but its hard going so long without him here. There's so much of him in the children.

              It much be harder on Ember than Nevaeh and Aaron. There to young to understand that he might not come home one of these days. Ember on the other hand understands more than the average adult does. I could sir and talk to her about things most adults don’t understand and she would understand every bit.

            Aaron's to little to understand that his dad's on the other side of the world. However I’m pretty sure he knows his fathers not here. I can tell he misses his father.

          Nevaeh has kept more to herself since he has been gone. It's almost like part of her went with him. She's always been close to her dad. Since the day she was born. There's no doubt in my mind that one day she will change the word. I look out the window of the looking room and watch my kid's play in the yard. It must be harder on them then it is on me. I knew from a young age that Daniel wanted to be a marine. There was nothing i could do the stop that and i didn’t wan to. I’m proud of him but its hard going so long without him here. There's so much of him in the children.

              It much be harder on Ember than Nevaeh and Aaron. There to young to understand that he might not come home one of these days. Ember on the other hand understands more than the average adult does. I could sir and talk to her about things most adults don’t understand and she would understand every bit.

            Aaron's to little to understand that his dad's on the other

           All three of them and there father make up my little world. Its hard to think i could lose a piece o my world in seconds. I want him home. I want them all safe. But, Maybe they couldn’t be safe if he didn’t fight for them to be.

          "I know he’s strong enough to make it through..." I said to myself  "he'll be home soon.." I looked over at the picture of the family we had taken 2 weeks before he left. "i wonder what he's thinking about right now.." i whispered to myself as i sat down in the rocking chair by the window..

          i watched Nevaeh play with a butterfly that landed next to her. she sat there for a second as if she was afraid it was going to hurt her. Then she cupped her hands over it and picked it up. I watched as it crawled on her arm. She giggled and it flew away. she watched it fly for a second then turned her attention to the white wild flowers she hs been picking before.

           I watched the butterfly fly farther and farther away. I wonder if it has any idea what’s going on in the world. About t war and other things or if it just flies free where ever it wishes. I watched the butterfly until it faded away into the sun lit field.

           I got up and walked to out on the porch with Ember. I sat down next to her on the porch swing and looked out over the field where the horses were grazing.

          "mama" Ember said "do you think daddy's going to be different when he comes home?"  "Well un sure he will be, war changes people sweetie. But if you asking me if he's still going to be you the same dad I’m sure of that." i said. She looked down at her hands then back up at me. "do you think he thinks about us?" She asked me. "Well in sure he does." i looked off into the distance. "and im sure he's excited to come home as well." "Yeah, me too" she replied.

            Just then Aaron walked up to me. I picked him up and sat him on my lap. "You having fun?" he nodded and laid his head against my shoulder. "Are you tired?" I asked him. He nodded again. "Alright" i said standing up and adjusting him on my waist. "Neveah, want to take a nap sweetie?" Neveah picked up a flower nd nodded to me. She walked up the steps to where i was standing. "Ember you want to come help me out them to bed?" I asked. "no, Im going to stay out here for a while." she said. "Alright, Come in for lunch in a bout a hour or 2 okay?" i said. She nodded. I walked into the house with nevaeh and Aaron and left Ember sitting on the porch.