Lonely Hearts Club

Beginnings

I looked around the corner to see Jasper waling behind Lisa. I only knew it was him from his Facebook profile although that didn't give much away at all. Before I could introduce myself or say anything he asked me who I was, I had never met this guy, so I didn't know what he was like, if he was drunk or sober, why he was asking me this or now why I was even here. I told him my name and that Zoe invited me, he merely said "Okay." and walked away. What was his deal? He asked Zoe to invite people and she did? Lisa just laughed and shaked her head in laughter at her shallow boyfriend. I sighed and carried on speaking to Elisha and Alex. 

Everyone started to settle down and before we knew it, it was 2am. I sighed and layed down on the sofa. Alex asked if he could sit with me, I told him he could and I moved up for him, he smiled at me and I asked Bethan to turn of the lights and she did so. It suddenly became darker than ever and I sighed. There was so much darkness everywhere. Alex asked me if I was okay and squeezed my hand as he began to hold it. I didn't expect this, he's never done it before. I smiled and reassured him as I layed down and put my head on his shoulder as he put his arm around me, I felt safe, safer than I had felt all night and like I belonged. I was shaking in my hands, I did it a lot, either when I over thought or something that I was going to over think about was happening. 

I looked at Alex and studied his silluette, he looked back at me and I began to forget things, things that were supposed to be important, like how my Mum thought I was down the road from her, everything started to feel fake, unrrealistic, like I was in a dream. Then I saw how his head started to edge closer to mine and how he wanted to kiss me and I froze, I didn't know what to do. I just kissed him, I didn't know what to do. I quickly fell asleep after that. 

In the morning we didn't say much as everyone we knew had left, so we got up and said bye to everyone and left, got the bus home and went to mine before anyone even noticed I wasn't at Poppy's. 

Days dragged in school and all I could think about is what happened between me and Alex. The problem was he wasn't thinking about it at all. So I decided to text him and look completely desperate. Fabulous.

Hey, Alex. I was just wondering, what happened the other night? Between you and me? I can't stop thinking about it and I need clarity.

I waited the whole night for a reply, until the morning came and he finally answered. 

Hey. Um yeah I don't know, I suppose I got carried away. I feel something for you though, don't get me wrong. I do. I just don't know if you're someone I can see something happening with.

I weirdly understood. I just left it at that and got ready for school, it was Thursday and I sort of wanted to do something this weekend so I messaged Zoe and Elisha on group chat to see if anything was happening, and then I left for school.