Lonely Hearts Club

Beaches

When I came home from school, Zoe and Elisha both messaged me saying that they don't know, but they wanted to make plans. I agreed and chucked my phone down before going to say hello to my mum, before I knew it when I came downstairs Zoe and Elisha had already made a group chat and added me to it, asking everyone what they were doing at the weekend, everyone replied the same thing, 'nothing', and I think that's what they were hoping for. 'Basically.' Elisha said, having already planned it on the phone with Zoe, which I could see coming 'Zoe and I are planning a beach thing, it is gonna be on Saturday, you can come back to mine after and bring drink!!' Elisha said, everyone was going so I thought I might go, it will be interesting and I can always go home if I'm not enjoying it.

Days dragged by and I was still thinking of Alex, I wasn't sure why, I knew how little it meant to him and yet I would think about him at least every hour, I felt sad about how much I thought about him, I always wanted to be someone else. I've always wanted to be that girl, the one who all the boys wanted because she wanted none of them. She waited for them to text first and acted all mysterious and only wore black, I've always wanted to be her.

Saturday came by slowly, but it came. I got ready as I slept through the day, and I literally just wore jeans and a top, I just wanted to be comfy and warm as we were going to a beach, at night. I brang a bit of drink but not much as it wasn't my top priority. That was making sure I don't get raped or something. I went there with Bethan, and it took us about an hour to get down there, maybe a bit longer as we probably spent longer than we should looking at this really nice spot we found with an amazing view. When we got there, there was about 10 people, I couldn't make out who they were. I looked around and probably shined the torch on my phone on many people who didn't deserve it. I finally found Zoe and Elisha with none other than Jasper. Great. I looked at him and then I went to speak to Zoe, on my way back from our chat Jasper was approaching me, "Hey, um.. I'm sorry for being a dick last Saturday. I was out of my face drunk, I didn't have a clue what I was doing.. I mean I'm drunk now! But not as drunk. Yeah. Sorry." Jasper said, slurring his words slightly.

"Hi. Um yeah, it was pretty rude. It's okay I suppose. I don't know." I said, smiling slightly.

"I know, I really didn't mean to say any of it, I wouldn't have ever done that normally. Can we be friends?" He asked me.

"Yeah.. I suppose? If you give me some of your cider." I joked. He nodded approvingly and poured some into my cup. "I was only joking!" I laughed, Jasper laughed slightly too, then we went back to stand with Bethan, Zoe and Elisha.

We talked for a bit and just sat on the rocks, I really enjoyed these peoples company, they made me feel so at home. More people started to come but I still couldn't make out who they were. "Fuck!" Zoe exclaimed. "Fucking shit fuck what the fuck?!"

"What is it Zo?" I asked.

"Over there! Fucking Alex is here." She said, making sure no one heared. Shit. Shouldn't I be worrying, not her?

"So what?" Bethan asked, already as confused as me.

"He told me he liked me the other night and I felt awkward, so I told him that I liked him back.. I really don't like him though, he's not my type at all." She said. My heart literally sunk, she didn't know what happened between me and him but it still made me feel sick to the stomach. Bethan looked over to me as she was the only person who knew, I looked back at her and we both gave eachother the 'what the fuck is going on' look. 

"Oh wow, that's weird." Was all I said. I looked down and started to trace the outline of the cracks in the rock I was sitting apon. Everything started to feel dream like again, I hated it when this happened. "Maybe we should leave?" I asked Bethan.

"Yeah.. You guys coming back to mine or?" Zoe asked us. Everyone nodded and Zoe rang her mum to pick us up.