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1 December

It was a lovely evening, 5pm, the sun  had already set an hour go, leaving the streets in darkness.

Snow was calmly falling on the ground, the streetlights together with the shiny Christmas decorations gave an inviting look to the world outside.

Normally you would've run outside just to spend some time, walking into the untouched snow, taking in the bright surroundings, and enjoy the swelling feeling in your heart while feeling excited about the season.

But this time it was different. You wanted to feel that good, but you just couldn't bring yourself to. Not after what had happened.

You sighed as you pushed the now finished cup of ice cream away from you on the tea table.

For the past few days you had been feeling extremely depressed. You had been dumped even before a real relationship had started, it felt horrible. All you had been doing during these days was crying your eyes out and eating away the sadness with ice cream. Though that hadn't helped that well. 

Moreover, it got worse. Comfort eating made you always realise how pitiful you were at the moment. How messed up you were, which added more salt onto the wound. That he had been able to break you like this, in the blink of an eye, you hated it. So much.

Just a week ago you were happily smiling in his warm, strong arms. Who knew that only a simple question about Christmas could've sabotaged everything.
You had been so sure that he had been wanting you as much as you wanted him. But apparently you couldn't have been more wrong.

Who were you trying to fool, how could you have thought that Joohyuk had was being serious with you. That he wanted something more with you. He had just been flirting around, maybe fluttering you a bit too much, cause that had caused you to fall deeper for him.

Maybe he just had a small crush on you and knew that it wasn't going to last long. So your blunt request to be kissed under a mistletoe must have taken him back. Yet it still felt unfair, and it made you feel so stupid. You had been so sure that he liked you, how could he just turn his back at you like that? He could just have told you that you were moving too fast. Or maybe he hadn't liked you at all, maybe he was just up for someone temporary to flirt and play with, to later leave them like nothing.

You let out a sigh, feeling how you started to dislike him more and more by every second that you thought about how he had messed you up. You wanted to cry, bet kept it in this time, you had already shed enough tears for an asshole.

With a sniff you looked down at the cute animal sitting in front of your feet, it's tongue hanging lazily out if his mouth as it swung the tail left to right excitedly. Your dog, Kookie never failed to make a little smile appear on your face, with those big, dark eyes that shone cutely.

"And what do you want?" you asked your dog, as you arched your brow at it. 

Kookie barked happily and you knew already what that meant, with a groan you threw yourself back deeper into the sofa.

"No way, I'm taking you out on a walk now!" You protested, even though your dog wouldn't understand what you were saying. 

Eventually you gave in and decided that maybe it wouldn't be so bad to leave your apartment, as you had locked yourself in it for several days. It was time to start forgetting what Joohyuk had done to you and try move on. You knew very well that it wouldn't be easy. You had been hurt by men so many times that forgiving and forgetting had become so much harder, since every time something like this happened, the same scar would open again. In the end it never got time to heal, you could never heal.