Get up and get over it they said.
If only it was that easy,
With a heart thats unsure,
With a mind thats constantly anxious,
It wasnt what they thought it was.
Waking up every morning with hopes,
Only to go back to bed wishing you were never human enough to have hopes.
Waking up feels like a curse on most days,
But on some days it feels like a blessing.
Constantly lost in overwhelming feelings,
Constantly over analysing things,
Constantly screaming internally to yourself to keep it together,
But all that only gets you tired.
Broken promises,
Abandoned relationships,
Uncommitted people,
Trust issues,
Insecurities,
Even if they dont physically kill you,
They lurk in the shadows of your past and fears,
Slowly killing you like cancer cells,
Spreading the pain.
Never truly being able to open up,
Never really sure of what is the cause,
Just lost and clueless,
Just in pain,
Somedays more than the others.
