I lit my cigaerette as I walked into the cold dark, sucking in the bitter taste and closing my eyes. Families walked all around me, smiling and laughing. I came to accept long ago, that I'll never get that. I was born to kill, fight, and steal for my life. I didn't used to have anything, my parents left when I was 6, to die in the cold. But in that horrible mess, a man named Jean saved my life. Jean was my purpose to live, and when he passed away, due to a gumshot wound to the head, I became one of the most renounced mafia leaders thanks to him. It wasnt much, but it's all ive ever known.
I built my group up from the ground up, and I've killed more lifes than I can count. But something always seem empty, a part inside me, that no matter how much I steal, lie, kill, or barter, it never fills the gaping hole. I used to think, if I continue what I always do, itll go away, but it never did.
I shook off my thoughts and stomped my cigarette under my foot as I walked into the downtown bar. Clashes of glasses and loud music filled the area. Through the haze smoke, I noticed Erwin sitting at the bar, he seemed to be having a conversation with the bartender. I was immediatly intrigued. The man had black hair sporting an undercut underneith, and a fancy bartender outfit that set off his stoic vibe. Although he seemed peculiarly short in height for a grown man.
The man didn't seem tp notice me when I sat down, instead he moved to the next available person. Erwin slammed his shot glass down in irritation.
"Its funny seeing you here Eren, maybe its fate." I winced at his slurred words.
"You wish, I'm not going back to you Erwin."
"Yknow Armin left me, he just walked out and I dont know why."
My eyes widened at his words, that's why he was here. Erwin never used to drink, so seeing him like this worried me. There was still a faint tenderness inside me I will always hold for Erwin, but things will never be the same. At some point, I was in love with Erwin, I thought he loved me too, until the day I found him in bed with my best friend Armin. I swore Id never fall in love again, nor did I deserve it. Erwin was the only person to fix me, he stopped my fighting, drinking, even stealing.
But the moment he left, I was left alone in this hellhole I've always been in. Fully convinced I didn't deserve anything regarding happiness or love. There was a short silence between us before I realized the bartender was coming over to me. I thought I kept all my composure, until he leaned over the counter, cleaning one of the glasses.
"Well are you going to order something, or stand thrre dumbfounded like a deer in the headlights?"
If it wasn't for his oversexualizing deep voice, I would have punched him. "A strawberry daquery please?" I heard Erwin chuckle next to me, "You haven't changed have you Eren?" I smiled fondly at his words. "I can't exactly say the same to you, I cant believe the I'm-always-going-to-be-sober-Erwin is drinking." I laughed playing with my lip ring between my teeth.
After a few drinks, everything around me seemed to go fuzzy. My head spun while I continued my conversation with Erwin, conversations about the past, good and bad memories. If I wasn't so distracted, I would have been able to pay attention to Levi, who gave me more drinks than the other, even when I didn't ask for them. Pretty soon, I couldn't focus anymore, I felt strong hands slide up my thighs. It didn't take me long to realize those hands belonged to Erwin, a familiar warmth overcame me as he pulled me to the dance floor.
I was suprised I could even stand up, but those familiar arms kept me steady. "Put it on me deeper" was playing, seeming to add to the mood. Red and purple hue lights illuminated everyone around us. In the back of my mind, I knew this wrong, but my body worked on its own. Pressing those warm lips against mine, my mind was to foggy to even care. My hands slid slowly down Erwins sides, pulling closer to feel even the slightest amount of friction. The loud music drowned out my moans when Erwins lips found the hollow parts of my neck.
It took me a minuite before I realized the warmth instantly left me. When I opened my eyes, in the haze of the music and drunken state, Erwin was on the floor, with levi standing over hin clenching his fists. Then it dawned on me, Levi punched Erwin. Standing up wiping his mouth, my mind was only able to put bits and peices together. Watching Erwin storm off into the fog. I tried to take one step but my balance left me, Instead of hitting the floor, I fell into unfamilar arms. I mumbled incoherent insults as he pulled me out of the bar.
"I need a cab, 134 west street, yes, thank you." Irritation rose in Levis voice as he turned to me.
"Why the hell would you let him touch you like that??" It didnt take long before Levis voice raised to yelling. I couldn't say anything anything, I only stared at him, in my drunken curiosity. I knew id be mad in the morning, for now I was admiring this strange man, who's last face I saw before everything went black.
When I opened my eyes the next norning, I wasn't in my bed. My head pounded as I scanned the room around me, I had never been in a room so fancy. glasswindows on the side, outlooked the city, the room was large with wooden floors, and dark brown antique dressers. The bed I was laying in, was a california king bed.
"Well well, look who's awake." My thoughts were interupted by a deep voice, my heart seemed to stop when I saw him. Levi was leaning against the door frame with only a towel on his waist. Black hair clung to the sides of his face, I tried to keep my eyes fron moving down Levis chisled body. Holy hell. "Why am I here?" My voice cracked, obviously destroyed from the night before. "You should be thanking me brat." Levi scoffed rolling his eyes while I narrowed mine. What gave him the right to be so cocky?
"I suggest you take that tylonal next to your bed, or your heads going to kill you."
"No, I'm fine, I'll just go home."
"Oi, I was just trying to be nice."
"I don't need your help!" I snapped as I got up walking towards the nearest door I could find. As soon as I found the right door, Levi slammed his hand on the door frame, blocking me from leaving. "You're about to rethink your cocky attitude, brat."
"Tsk, yeah like im afraid of you, I've dealt with people much worse than you." My words must have no have matched up to my facial expressions. For I froze when I met silver eyes only inches from mine. Levi was so close I could feel his warmth breath. Damnit why wasn't I moving? As soon as our lips were a hairs length away, the phone rang. "Just ignore it? He growled quietly sliding his hands down my arms, causing a shiver to rise from my throat.
The phone didn't stop, pretty soon, Levi paused taking off out the door to answer the phone. My back hit the door as I slid down, I swore id never let someone get close to me like that again. I had to get out of here, before I was pulled into something else. I quietly walked through the apartment, praying I could get out safely of the chaotic maze of a hallway. but of course, I was wrong. I slammed right into Levi, who stood there fuming with his arms crossed. No longer in a towel, he was in jeans, and a light blue shirt, with sleeves that stopped at the elbows. The shirt seemed so tight; It looked like it would have ripped off him any minuite.
"I never said you could leave, I saved your life, the least you could do is give me a little fun." Levi grabbed onto my wrist, I tried desperatly to lose his grasp while his lips grazed my ear. I was rendered useless when his knee moved up, causing me to gasp. With all the strength I had I could muster up, I pushed Levi off me and took off towards the door. When I reached outside, I called my roommate Mikasa.
"Hey, come pick me up, im at 134 west street." After hearing her chew my ear out for what seemed like forever, she hung up. A red convertible pulled up with a very, very angry mikasa in the drivers seat. But I was thankful, if i didn't have her Id most likely be homeless. She can be a pain, but I learned to deal with it.
"What happened with Erwin and you, he's been calling me nonstop?" I froze in the middle of lighteing my ciggarette, letting the flame die down as I shrugged my shoulders. Trying to push away last nights thoughts as much as possible. I wanted to get rid of those thoughts of Levi, those eyes, that body, and that voice. I don't need any of it, or so I thought.
I didn't check my phone the whole way home, and that was a big mistake because by the time we got home, I had 32 missed calls from non other than Levi. I must have figured he got my number when I fell asleep. I turned off my phone and walked to my room, thankful to be in my own bed. But even when I closed my eyes, I still pictured Levi, the way his body felt against mine, and the radiated warmth. I didn't want to care about this, I had to avoid him as much as possible. Before it's to late, and im pulled in. Eventually I closed my eyes, and drifted off to sleep.
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Fanfiction"I was rendered useless, my body, my soul, all belonged to that man..." Eren Yeager, a notorious gang leader with a dark background, swore he'd never fall in love, but when fate turns the table, what happens when he comes face to face with a bart...
