Twist Me

Masquerade

The sun cascaded through the windows in Levi's room, sounds of cars and noises outside faded into the backround of the early morning hours. The outside world was filled with sound, but the only noise coming from the room im in, is the shallow quiet breathing of the man in my arms. So quiet, to where if I payed close enough attention, I could count each breath we both take and how they collide. I never wanted to let this go, I finally found something in my life, that im scared of losing, no not scared; terrifed. I wanted each moment with Levi, every breath till the day I die. Parts of me, wondered why Levi accepted me, why he chose me. It must have been fate, I know at some point, I'll have to tell him about my past, but for now, god just give me this one moment of happiness, before it slips from my grasp.

My thoughts were interrupted by a slight movement in my arms, and sleepy eyes glancing up at me. I was staring into a hurricane, letting myself get utterly and unconditionally swept away. I pulled my arms tighter around Levi without saying a word, pressing my lips against his forhead.

I was putty in Levi's hands and he knew it too, I was rendered usless, my body, my soul, all belonged to that man. Wrapped around his pretty little finger, I wanted nothing mored than to be swallowed whole by Levi, to have my body and soul stolen completly. I wanted to make each moment last, I wanted to cherish every breath, before it's ripped from me, before my world ceases to exist, before my past catches up to me. I never expected any of this to happen, I never expected for this beautiful man to mean so much to me, I never expected to fall so far, I never expected any of it. But that's how love works. Love is like a snow storm, you look out in your backyard, and a few flakes are falling, and you don't really think much of it, until you look again, and your yard is a snowstorm, piling up more and more.

Levi is my snowstorm. Levi is my hurricane, my happiness, my right, my wrong, and I want to be strong enough to fight the oncoming troubles. Any troubles I go through, I stare into those eyes, and my world is okay again. I was rescued from my hell, pulled into euphoria, and poured on by happiness and love. The day I met Levi, my world was altered forever, and I know I will never be the same. If I could, id spend every waking moment in his embrace, safe to where the cruel world can't touch me. I wonderes how long this would last, how long I'd have these little moments I loved so much, how long I'd have to stare at the now familiar person in my arms. How long until the demons in my mind reside again, how long until Levi sees the side I've been trying so hard to hide, how long until Levi learns about my past, and the horrible things I've done.

My facial expression must have changed, a warm hand found my cheek, I looked down into Levi's eyes, the hurricane filled with a sea of worry, eyebrows nit together in confusion. I smiled tilting Levi's chin giving him a reassuring kiss to show I was okay, it was chaste and quick, but seemed like enough.

The shrill ringtone of Levi's phone almost made me jump, wondering who could be calling him so early in the morning. Mentally cursing whoever it was, making levi leave me alone in the blankets while he got up to go receive the call. I curled into a ball, the blankets weren't Levi, but they could work as a substitute till he got back. I sat up on my elbows when I heard Levi's rushed voice, I couldn't exactly tell what emotion it was, but if one were to guess, irritated.

"No, Krista, I do not want to go to your masquerade party, and neither does Eren." My head shot towards the door, who was Krista? and who said I didn't want to go? "Your parties are trouble, and I'll be damned, if I catch Eren running around, drunk off his ass with some perverted sleezball" I was starting to get irritated, didn't he trust me? did he think I was asleep? I quietly got out of bed, slipping on my sweatpants trying not to let Levi hear me. All was left, was a exasperated sigh, slamming the phone down on the table, I walked down the hall to find Levi sitting in the kitchen chair, pinching the bridge of his nose. I was unsure of what to say, or if I should have said anything at all in that moment. But my mouth ran faster than my mind.