Fragile Little Flame (Haylor)

Forgive Me For This Too

Hello Bubbles! How are you all doing? Great? Bad? Well I am not doing good either. Too much study burden and all. Anyways here is a much waited update for you all. 

I hope you enjoy it.

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Taylor's POV

"Sorry if I am dying to kiss you right now." Jake whispered and started leaning in and my breath hitched.

I closed my eyes momentarily and was ready for the kiss but it was like something snapped in me, when I closed my eyes I started imagining Harry and I just couldn't do that to Jake. I opened my eyes and could feel his breath against my lips, I slowly took a step back as I clutched Jake's arm in my hand. "I..I can't. I am..I am sorry." I stuttered out and left the dance floor as fast as possible, wanting to get away from Jake not wanting to see the hurt look on his face. I went to the bar and motioned for the bartender to prepare a drink. It took only few seconds for him to place the torturous liquid in front of me. Torturous because it would either numb your pain or would make you feel twice as much as pain. It was risk that basically everyone was willing to take.

I played with Jake's feelings, I shouldn't have indulge myself in him while knowing that he has feelings for me while knowing what I wouldn't be able to return his feelings. Oh my gosh! I was such a fool. I wanted to cry as I took a gulp of the drink in my hand. I felt someone taking a seat besides me and I knew exactly who he was by his silence.

"I am sorry." I whispered. My voice slightly hoarse from all the alcohol I was consuming. "I just..I don't know what take over me..I am sorry for hurting you like that." I trailed off as I glanced over at Jake who gave me one of his side smile that kinda calmed my nerves. "I am fine-" Jake started and I could tell he was lying, he must have read the look on my face as he corrected himself. "I mean I will be fine. You didn't hurt me..that much." Jake chuckled as he rubbed the side of his neck. "Sorry I am not good with words in this kind of situations." Jake said and I gave him a sad smile. "I know. I just want you to know that I am extremely sorry for..For doing what I did. I didn't wanted to give you miss signals. I.." I trailed off and Jake nodded attentively taking in whatever I was saying.

"I know. It's fine Taylor. Really. You just love someone else and I think I have an idea who." Jake said as he looked around before looking back at me as to prove a point. "W..Who?" I asked as I watched him take sips of drink. "Mr.Styles has been boring holes in the side of my head with all his glares." Jake said as he tilted his head to the side as to indicate me. I looked in the direction and saw Harry glancing at her every here and there. "I am sorry about that too." I sighed as I finished my drink feeling my head getting lighter.

"It's fine. I just hope things get better between you two because it sucks to see a beautiful girl like you cry." Jake said as he wiped his finger on my cheek capturing a tear there which I didn't even knew was falling down. "That's just sweat." I told Jake with a slight laugh as I picked up his drink taking a sip. "I didn't knew people sweat from eyes." Jake said amused at my state. "Duh. My eyes are tired from blinking so many times." I replied as I swing around on my barstool. "Well..I think I will leave now since there is no point in staying..uh stay here and I will get Selena. Okay?" Jake asked while I just hummed in response to busy staring at my reflection on the glass table. Why do my hair look golden? I thought they were blonde. That's..now Harry wouldn't love me as much as before. He once said he loved my blonde hair..now I don't even have that. Well I don't have Harry either so..

"Do it! Do it! Do it!" I heard the crowd shouting around in a group and I got curious about what was going on. I basically stumbled over to the crowd a grin forming on my face when I noticed what they were doing. Body shots! I never done them in my life but now the idea of it sounds very interesting. The crowd was cheering up when a guy, a rather good looking one volunteered. He had jet Black hair with green eyes but not as beautiful as Harry's. He was good looking tho. I looked around seeing that there was still no girl who was ready to join. I shrugged my shoulders and raised my hand up, the crowd breaking into cheers as I laughed. They pushed me forward toward the table and the guy grabbed my hand. "Hello there Gorgeous." He said as he pulled me closer and I laughed, he seemed nice but he was being too touchy. "Sorry my name is Taylor." I giggled out as I looked around at the cheering crowd. "Sorry my fault, Taylor." He laughed as two people approached us. "So what do..do I do..to do body shots?" I slightly slurred out while I figured in my mind if my grammar was right.