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Sandra
We all have that one person who brings us back on track in this world. Mine happened to be my love world, and Sandra took me from hopeless to loving in a short period of time. She was the first real love I had since Carissa. We met in a class we had together, and from the moment I saw her, I knew things would be special. I introduced myself to her and as beautiful as she was, she looked at me and said,
"I'm Sandra, I just moved here, what's your name?"
Starting to choke on my words I said,
"Tom, my name is Tom."
"Well hi there Tom, do you mind showing me around to my other classes?"
"Yeah sure, and maybe we can get some lunch after that?"
"I would love that, but I don't have any money, sorry Tom."
"That's fine, it's my treat as a welcome to our school."
"Oh Tom, that's so sweet but I could never let you do that."
"It's really nothing."
With that I walked her to her Chemistry class and she kindly thanked me for being the only person to be nice to her that day. From there I walked to Math and didn't pay attention a bit as all I could think about was Sandra, and how could I not? She seemed so amazing, I just couldn't wait to have lunch with her. At the sound of the bell, I run from my class to hers to meet up with her for lunch. She decides that we should go to a Chinese restaurant that she had just heard of. A simple lunch date can turn into a whole session of learning.
"Tom, tell me about yourself."
"Why?"
"I want to know about you."
"I was raised by my parents, I have an older sister, and I expect to be in university next year. What about you?"
"Come on Tom, where is the juicy inner stuff?"
"What inner juicy stuff?"
"Nevermind, sorry for asking, do you want to go?"
"Sure."
I pick up the cheque, and as I do so, I realized that this girl would be someone important to me for a long time to come.
She became a vital part in my life, I fell in love again and she had known it and had fallen for me but didn't want to say it. Late night calls about nothing at all, just speaking about how the other is and what they did that day, even though we texted each other all day. It was true love. Within a couple months she had a boyfriend named Cory and I was a guy she had been dragging along.
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A year later, after she had broken up with Cory for me, Sandra and I went to a drive in and I decided to tell her the juicy inner stuff.
"Sandra, can we talk?"
"Uh sure Tom, what about?"
"Us."
"Tom, what do you want to talk about?"
"I was once in love, and I messed it horribly..."
"Tom, where are you going with this?"
"And I love you, a lot. I don't want to mess this up, and..."
"Tom, can we not discuss this right now and just enjoy the movie first?"
"Yeah sure, no problem."
Through the rest of the movie, I was thinking of what to tell her, I loved her so much and I just wanted to tell her and have her kiss me, just like in the movies, but who knows how these things actually are in real life.
After the movie ends we decide to go to a diner and have dinner.
"So what did you want to talk about Tom?"
"We need to talk about us."
"What about us? I like us."
"You like us? How? You dragged me along for the better part of a year and how did you expect me to feel?"
"I'm sorry Tom, I wasn't really thinking..."
"You're right, you weren't thinking. You had no care in the world for my feelings and you expected me to reply how? Oh lover be mine? I can't do that for you, I'm sorry. When I told you earlier that I was in love once and I messed it up, well this time I was in love again, and you messed it up."
"Tom, please don't do this, I really do love you."
"Then what happened for the last year? Did you love me then? Or did you love him and pretend you loved me? Or are you going to tell me the classic line that you were really playing him and not me? Because I've heard that one before, it's a real classic."
"Tom, I loved you and love you, I'm sorry for what I did, you did not deserve that at all, you deserve so much better than a woman like me, you deserve someone who loves and respects you and doesn't put you second to anyone."
"Did you love him?"
"Yes."
"Then you're right, I do deserve better. Sorry, bye."
I waited for a cab and even paid for the ride home for her, after that I couldn't stand to see her anymore, she had broken my heart after all we had been through. Throughout the summer, I'd text her with the urge of missing her, and half way through every conversation we'd start yelling at each other with such anger and vengeance that we both knew this relationship had met it's end, a sad and cruel end. All good things must come to an end, and sometimes, the good things don't end up being very good at all.
