Drunk

PART ONE: Drunk (3)

"Lauren, were both drunk. This never happened."

 Camila grabbed the bottle of whisky on the bedside table. Lauren looked at her in surprise on how she drink without hesitation and how she continued on despite wincing because of how strong it is.

"Wait! Let me have some." Lauren felt her mouth say. 

Camila wiped her lips with the back of her hand and gave the bottle to Lauren. Lauren gave a long gulp. Whew! this one's almost as strong as Sean's drink. "Oh-kay. We're drunk. This never happened."

Camila laughed and Lauren joined her. It felt like they were 15 again. She looked at Camila's puffy eyes, red cheeks and the beautiful wide smile and finally had the courage to say it. 

"I love you."

Camila's laugh faltered. Confusion was clear on her face. Lauren felt her sweat drip on her temple. She gulped and was about to say that she didn't mean it when Camila smiled at her.

"Fuck! I love drunk Lauren." Camila hugged her.

Lauren gently pushed her away so she could look at Camila's eyes "Wait! I'm not that drunk"

"Lauren,you're wasted!" Camila giggled.

"Camila! Listen to me. I am not that drunk. I meant it. I love you." Lauren looked deeply at Camila's eyes to prove that she was serious about it. She held the small girl's hands tightly. What the fuck am I doing?

Camila shook her head and laughed, tears falling down her face. "Lauren.. you're drunk. I know you are! Because.. " Before she could finish her sentence, Lauren embraced her.

"I love you." Lauren repeated firmly which made Camila cry harder. Lauren felt her shoulder wet with her tears.

When she calmed down, Camila sniffled, "Its too late. Lauren."

"Its never too late."  I love you Camila. Lauren was suddenly so certain about it. She wanted to love and take care of this girl.

Camila stood up, as if hearing her thoughts and protesting about it. "It is Lauren. Its fucking too late!"

"I-I don't understand. Just because you're going solo? Is that it?"

Camila shook her head, "I'm in a relationship with Michael now! UGH! "

Lauren felt her heart break into a million pieces. I just realized that I'm in love with you and now you get to break my heart this fast?

Lauren couldn't speak properly and could only mutter, "What? "

Camila was frantic. She paced back and forth, "I didn't know exactly when, but we kept on contact and I just fell for him."

"But-But you love me right?"

"Lauren, its not that easy! I can't just break up with him that way! He's loyal to me and he's done a lot of things for me.. He loves me Lauren. And I.. I think I love him."

"Then why the fuck did you say you love me?! Why did you let me hope about us?!"

"Look I didn't know you were conscious! I just wanted to confess to you because its hard keeping it all bottled in. I did love you Lauren. And I still do. But I gave up on you a long time ago. Its not the same anymore.."

"Don't give up on me Camila. Give me a chance.Please"

Camila looked at Lauren.The woman she dreamed kissing for so many nights. She's now crying and begging for her love. She should be happy right now. But somehow she's not.