// Girls // The 1975

And this is how it ends. [alternative ending]

5 p.m.

 

5 years later

 

It’s been five years since the night Drake walked out of his room leaving me there to cry, it’s been five years since he walked out of my life.

 

I deserved everything; I deserved being left behind by the person I loved. I screwed everything up. See I was the girl his brother was with a month before whatever happened to us began. His brother wasn’t very different from Drake, both of them had the chocolate brown hair and the piercing blue eyes but there was something in Drake that I never found in Josh, Drake was the one I loved all along.

 

Drake. His name never left my mind. Josh wasn’t the first of the brothers I had met; I met Drake way before I met him, I met him when I was the vulnerable, innocent, little miss goodie two shoes, Cici.

 

I still remember how he had fought for me when one of his friends decided to pull a prank on me. Drake along with his brother was always part of the “upper class” at the school’s food chain and I was pretty much at the bottom. I was an easy prey and his friends where mighty predators.

 

Drake wasn’t one to bully, he was cool and better than the rest that’s why the school looked up to him and Josh was the same. So I guess the day Stacey, the head cheerleader may it be cliché as it sounds bullied me, both of them stood up for me and it made me realize that Drake was a really nice guy, long story short I had a big crush on him.

 

And this is how everything starts.

 

I figured if I wanted to be noticed by Drake I had to change, I had to lose the innocent little Cici and become the rebellious girl who drank, partied and smoked her days away, Lacey.

 

Still Drake didn’t notice me. He was still one of the boys who played around and hooked up with random girls and well I was a beginner at being a rebel or whatever you call it so I decided to do something, and that was the worst plan I could’ve thought of; I used Josh.

 

It could’ve been obvious but Josh was heartbroken so I guess he didn’t mind either, we hooked up, I started hanging out with their clique, hanging out with the people around Drake just so that he’d notice me but one night while I was with Josh and apparently I couldn’t hold my alcohol as I thought I could, Drake’s name slipped and Josh found out. I owed him an explanation so I told him everything and he couldn’t believe it but he decided not to make such a big deal, the guy was very kind despite his bad boy image, just like his brother. Their clique must’ve gotten used to me being there and they didn’t mind me staying despite of Josh and me breaking it off.

 

Drake and I, well we started talking and I got what I wanted, we hooked up, but I was broken when he asked me to promise that whatever we’d do, there shouldn’t be any emotions attached. It was a challenge, a risk I was ready to take and so I took it.

 

And all hell broke loose because a naïve little girl thought she could be a person she never wanted to be.