Playing with Fire: Other Realm, Frost Family Series Book 5

Trick 3

Felix

It had been a month since I'd last seen Bri. My mind had been like a never-ending, spinning top. Going round and round in circles and nothing ever really becoming clearer. Bri and her doctor...that one had gone decently. Her doctor had taken the hint I'd dropped and connected the dots. To be honest, I wasn't very proud about how I'd done that. But at least now both Bri and her doctor knew what they were playing with here.

Unfortunately, I'd screwed up the car ride back. None of what had happened should have. Gotta keep a tighter reign, I told myself harshly. I couldn't afford to let something like that happen again...My control was already shaky enough as it was...If I lost control completely? It would be a disaster, put nicely. 

Groaning, I covered my face with my hands, leaning forward in my chair.

"Problems?" Bren asked evenly. 

Lowering my hands, I glanced up at him, sighing. "Problems doesn't even begin to describe it," I grumbled darkly. "I've got two kids on the way and a women who can't stand me."

"Ever think of not being an ass? Maybe Bri will fall for you then," he chuckled.

I reared back in my seat, shooting him a glare. "What? Fall for me? Never in a million years. Besides, I don't want or need her to."

Bren eyed me for a long moment before tipping back his can of cola. "Hmm...That's not what I'm getting from you."

"You shut your fucking mouth...please," I barely remembered to add. 

He nodded his head in a slight acknowledgment. "Alright...Touchy, are we? But that just serves to prove my point," he smiled in challenge for me to seriously use my power over him.

Growling, I threw out a shockwave of cold air to release some of my anger. "I don't have time for these jokes. It's getting closer every day, and with this...hiccup, how the fuck am I going to manage to do what needs to be done?"

He shifted from where he'd been leaning against my kitchen island. "What if you just tell her? You know, let her see you when-"

"Absolutely not!" I snarled, feeling my control on my temper slip even more. Sucking in a deep breath, I panted. Bren watched me apprehensively but said nothing, not daring to move an inch, not even to shift his position slightly. When I truly got angry, he knew how much damage I could cause. Bren had helped me clean up more than a few…messes over the years and I couldn’t afford to let another happen yet again.

Especially since my newest one happened to involve Bri and two innocent, defenseless, blameless children.

Groaning in a mixture of disbelief, horror, and frustration, I raked my fingers through my hair. “I. Can’t. Do. That.” I reminded him tightly. “You. Know. Why.”

He slowly nodded, his body relaxing, very slightly. “Yeah…I know why you feel like you can’t do it. I understand your reasons why very well. But I still feel like…Felix, this shit is important. She’s the mother of your children, whether you wanted any or not. It’s happening and she’s going to be a part of your life, a very important one, if you want anything to do with those girls. If you want to see them or be a part of their lives, Bri’s going to be your gateway. If nothing else…Felix, this shit could be genetic, you have no idea. And what if it is? Do you really think it’s fair for Bri to have to walk into this mess blind?”

Damn it…He’s right. Why does he have to be right? The logical part of my mind was both annoyed and saddened.

I don’t fucking care! No one can know about it! The illogical part of my mind was just seething.