Love Between Us

CH9 - Doubt and Trust

(Bas' POV)

After he drives his car away, I go inside my house and walk straight into my room afterwards. I can't believe it. Is this real? How come? I know that he is telling the truth because he is too obvious about this kind of thing. He has always been obvious about his feelings. He will daze when we film the series, and he won't even hide his sleepiness. He will look angry if he is mad at something. He will laugh and crack a joke nonstop when he is happy.

There is even one time before that Bang Live interview when we had dinner together and he was so straightforward. He kept on giving food to my plate. He wouldn't stop giving me something to eat. I told him I would get fat but he kept doing that and I couldn't resist the food, you know. I ate them all. I asked him why he kept giving me all the food and he said so I could get even fatter and no one would take me away from him. I choked on my food that time. Thank God there was only us when he said that. If there was P'Tee there, he would definitely ask P'Godt to say it all over and record it so he could post it on his Twitter. No, P'Tee is not a bad guy but he does love teasing people on Twitter.

Ping

"Sigh..."

I heave a big sigh as I open my phone. Here comes his good night messages.

P'Godt: "Good night na, nong. Dream about P' if you can 5555."

Me: "I'd rather dream about food 5555."

P'Godt: "Why? P' is more delicious than food."

Cough Cough Cough

I literally choke on air when I see his reply. How is he so confident?! What am I supposed to answer now?

Me: "Yeah sure, I..." backspace backspace

Me: "So confident. Don'...." backspace backspace

Me: "Kruuub, Doc Pha. Bye, I want to sleep."

I tease him by the name Doc Pha every time he becomes arrogant and overconfident. It doesn't take him long to reply to my messages. Isn't he still on the way home though?

(Godt's POV)

Everytime my phone rings a notification of new messages, I stop my car somewhere to check if it is from Bas. I am still halfway to being home but at least I want to reply to him first. I set a special notification for him on my phone. On Instagram, I have turned on the post notification from his account so I can know what he is doing. He always posts on his IG story when he is somewhere, and after I see his IG story, I try to post a story as well in hope he will notice I am informing him where I am. I am childish, I know. I have been doing this even before I broke up with Sherlin actually.

After a while texting each other, he says he wants to sleep and I send him a good night sticker on LINE, along with a heart sticker. Damn, I am such a kid. He replies to me with a heart too! He is killing me.

With a wide smile, I drive again to my home. When I get there, my sister is still awake and she opens the door for me. She follows me to my room and it's not even a new thing. She will tell me about her day at school and about her friends who want to say something to me.

"P'Godt. I heard you broke up with P'Sherlin."

"Huh? Didn't I tell you already?"

"Oh? You did? Hahaha. Well, my friends at school said they saw you with P'Bas at Siam Center. Are you two going out?"

"Shh. Why do you want to know? Anyway, don't talk about that at school."

"Aaaaah! For real?! Are you two dating?"

"Not yet."

"OMG!!"

"Shh, mom and dad are asleep. Promise me you won't spread this out. He will definitely reject me if you do."

"Don't worry, P'. I will lock my mouth and throw the key away to the ocean. My lips are shut. I will never talk about this anywhere but do tell about it to me, okay? na? na na? P'~"

"Why are you so excited? I should be the one who is excited, haha." I ruffle her hair.

"OMG! Then! Did you go with him again today?"

"Yeah."

"Have you asked him out, P'?"

"I did, earlier this evening."

"OMG!!!"

"Ow ow ow. Stop hitting P' na, haha."

"Aw, sorry P'Godt. I am so excited!! My friends at school are always talking about how you two must be secretly dating behind the camera after the series airs. I can't believe it's going to get real."

"Stop it. I am embarrassed here. You aren't against my decision? I am hitting on a guy, you know."

"Why would I? I support you with everything I have."

"What? With your dolls?"

"Yes. Munich* will support you too, I am sure of it." [Note: Their cat.]

"Hahaha. Go to sleep, it's late already."

"Okay, night P'Godt."

"Night."

She walks out of my room, humming and bouncing around. Having a little sister is just... sigh. I believe Bas will know how it feels when Fon is older. I smile like an idiot at the fact that my sister supports the idea. Well, I have to take a shower now and finish my assignments. Even though I have schedules and events to attend, I still go to classes and do my assignments. I hope I can finish my bachelor's degree soon and focus on my career. When I am about to walk to the bathroom, there is a new LINE message. It's from Bas. I can't help but scratch my nape when I read the message. Bas, you are really trying to kill me.

(Bas' POV)

Is this really a good thing to do? I know that we can just hide our relationship from the others but sooner or later people will find out. What will we do if that happens after I accept him? We are still amateur actors, so we can't let this affect our career in any way.

I doubt he can refrain himself in the public if I do accept him. I know he will comply with my wish and be subtle if I want it but... Do we have to be in a relationship? Of course I want to be in a relationship with him but I don't know...

I guess I should just sleep for now. I will think about this later after I clear my mind. There are so many things I need to think about. I don't even know what I need to think about. I guess I just need some time before I give my answer.

Here goes nothing. I open my phone and send him a LINE message.

Me: "Sweet dreams, P'Godt. I promise I will give my answer soon. Don't give up on me na."