Gang wars, Hot guys and Guns

Chapter 19

My loud music stopped the men from hearing my painful sobs as I lay curled on my bed with my hands pressed against my empty stomach.

My nightmares were worse but no one could help me Christian had told my dad that he needed to get away for a while and disappeared shortly after we got home that day without me even seeing him.

And every other man in this house was still traumatized by that day, I knew for a fact Harry was having nightmares and even though he wouldn't talk about them I knew he was reliving what happened to me in that basement and blamed himself for allowing me to go there.

My father had hired even more men and made the house even more like a fortress but with the Spiders still out there and all his other enemies it was the only way for him to feel like he was protecting us against them.

To me it didn't matter since I no longer left my room and only ate when Harry or my father forced me to.

My music was the only thing that helped even slightly but it did not stop the empty ach in my stomach or the hollow feeling that Christian had left in my heart nothing would take those feelings away except having my baby back growing inside of me and Christian here with his arms wrapped around me.

Harry continued to tell me that he just needed time that he felt stupid and weak for allowing two teenage girls to tie him up and rape him but I was raped to and not just once and I never turned my back on him no matter how much he hurt me I continued to love him.

One day Harry came to my room quietly closing the door and moving to sit with me while looking angry and slightly worried "Lana" I looked at him frowning "Harry are you alright?" He shook his head and sighed "no I'm not Garcia is back but."

He paused running a hand through his hair "he isn't alone Lana he met a girl while he was gone and brought her with him" I gave a gasp of pain then bit my lip hard to stop any other noise from escaping then I sighed "it doesn't matter Harry it was obvious from the start that I was just someone that Garcia thought of as easy I mean he wasn't even here when I lost my baby and having nightmares every night so let him have his girlfriend I don't need him or anyone else."

Harry wrapped his arms around me allowing me to bury my face into his chest while I cried for my baby and everything wrong with being Lana West.

Harry forced me to wash my face and change my clothes telling me that it was time I ventured downstairs that being stuck in my room was not good for me.

Clutching his arm tightly I followed him into the kitchen where my father was at the stove cooking.

He looked up smiling at me "hey baby girl have you come to show your old man how to cook again?" I shook my head and forced a chuckle "no sorry daddy I am just going to watch."

Harry pulled the stool back from the bench so I could sit down then he sat down beside me while we watched my father stir something on the stove "so what are you making daddy?"

He looked up from tasting something on his spoon "soup I think" I looked from him to the pot "you think?" He laughed as he went back to stirring "yes but I think my daughter would have done a better job since just like her mother she is a natural at cooking."

"Along with other things isn't that right Lana?" I spun around to find Christian and a short red head standing in the doorway, Christian giving me his cold smirk that he hadn't given me for a long time.

The girl had her arms wrapped around his waist while smiling at me "hi Lana I am Ginger it is nice to meet you" I nodded at her then turned back to my father choosing to ignore Christian's remark.