Impure Flaws

chapter-one

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"I can't marry her"

I said to my parents, I know it is too late to stop this marriage but I have to do this. now or never, I can't destroy her life and dreams, she's too good for me I can't do this, I know she'll be very mad at me and never forgive me for this but it's for her own good Maybe one day she'll understand and forgive me "Insha'Allah"

"What" my father Noman Ahmad asked confused.

"I can't marry her" I repeated looking at them, I know I'm going to hurt them by doing this but I have to.

"What you're talking about, we don't understand say clearly" abba demanded. How do I tell them why I'm doing this they'll be devastate after knowing the truth and ammi
I don't even want to think what will happen to her, they're better off in the dark, I can handle their angry, but not pity.

" Noor beta are you nervous or scared to be married, you're just freaking out and besides you're not alone we're with you" my mother Azia Ahmad tries to console me but they don't know that I'm not nervous nor scared I would love to marry her, hell I was dying to marry her, i was waiting for this day, i want nothing but to be with her but I can't and it only pains me I don't want to hurt her knowing how much she have gone through.

" ammi abba you won't understand" I stated.

"Then make us, my patience is running out" he yelled at me.

" Noman be calm yelling at him won't do any good, we have to handle this calmly" ammi tries to calm Abba but I know he won't be, my father is a very patient man but when he gets angry its hard to Calm him and today after what I'm going to do they'll never forgive me, they'll disown and even if I told them the truth I'll be never able to look them in eye.

"How can I be calm Azia today is his nikha and he's backing out last minute" abba Said to ammi while glaring draggers at me. I released a long sigh and palmed my Face how do I make them understand without telling them the truth I don't have any other valid reason to give them.

"My flight leaves in an hour" I told them at last and started to gather my clothes and other important thing which were scattered all over the room and put them in a suitcase hastily.

"You're kidding right" abba asked like he didn't believe that his son is really doing this , he never taught us to give up, no matter how hard it is, he always say's don't stop till you get what you want and never run away from a problem because it will follow you where ever you go But today I don't have any other option except running away like a coward.

"I'm serious" I meet their eyes I can see how deeply it's going to affect  them especially ammi, there are silent tears streaming down her eyes begging me not to do this, it pains me that I'm the reason for her tears, my mother is crying because of me but I have to do this, truth will hurt her more and her dreams for son will be scattered, I can't and won't do this to her I'll hide the truth till my last breath but I'll save them from the humiliation,  this truth will bring on them.

"Allah'hafiz"

I bid them goodbye and look at them one last time I don't know when I'll be seeing them again not anytime soon I guess , I don't even know if they'll accept me back.

"Noor Ahmad stop being a coward, you are not leaving come back and get ready for your nikha " abba demanded, I always do as he say's never goes against him but today I can't.

"She's waiting for you noor, please don't do this to her" ammi pleaded.

I turned my back at them. ignoring their shouts and protests and left them with no destination and hope.

Glossary

Ammi : mother

Abba : father

Allah hafiz : Islamic greetings

Beta : son

Insha'Allah : if Allah's will

Nikah :  Islamic contract between bride and groom.

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