Impure Flaws

Chapter - nine

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" Ya Rabb please guide me towards right path and forgive me for my wrong doings , you are one and only my lord from whom i seek , please protect me from evil and grant me sabr ya Rabb you are one and only who gives and takes , please help me i only ask from you my lord " my eyes watered as i pray , nothing makes you feel peaceful as much as pouring your heart out to your lord he is the only one who can comfort you like no one else .

After last night i don't have any strength to function properly i couldn't even think straight i don't know what to do every thing seems like a horrible nightmare . it was only first night with Ahad and i couldn't even think properly , how i will survive my rest of life with him especially nights .

" Allah Pak please give me strength and Sabr "

" Innal'lah ma'saberine "

"Innal'lah ma'saberine"

"Innal'lah ma'saberine "

I repeat it again and again , indead the Lord is with them who are patient . Who indure his tests and Always follow his path .

He's the only one who cure and heal your broken hearts .

I get up from sajood at peach and new found determination . I won't give up and let someone wrong me  . I'll fight till my last breath . I'll fight for my dignity , I'll fight for myself ,I'll fight for my beloved parents . They didn't birthed me for this  . They would'nt want this . They always wanted me to be happy and independent . I will not fail them . No matter what I'll never give up Insha'Allah.

A knock broke my out of my trance . I face somber knowing who is it . I opened the door to face my doomed fate . I step aside to let him in and leave the door wide open . I don't want to give him any more advantage.

" Are you ready , dadi is expecting us"

I only nod at him and gather my bag and other neccicities we'd brought for the night . I shudder as last night ebb in my mind with full force again . No matter what I can't seem to forget it and end up thinking about it .

It will be harder than I thought to forget it . I can only push them in the dark corner of my heat but   never delete those gruesome  memories. 

The ride back at home was silent but not peaceful. there was so much tightness in the , that it hard to breathe  . This Whole  ordeal that happened last night was . Nothing  is peaceful ever since I got married , and it will never be .

" We're here " 

I inhale sharply when I hear his and got out of the car ,  while giving my self a internally a prep talk of what I'm about to do . I can not back down and just stay silent I'm no coward and weak , I won't let a arrogant asshole let ruin me .

"Assalam alaikum" 

I greet everyone as politely as I can and try to control my raging anger , not yet I can't not in front of all these nosy unwanted guests who all doesn't have anything better do except sticking their nose where it doesn't belong .

" Mah where is dadi  and  why wasn't she at the lunch "  I asked mah as she washed the dishes and dry them , through she was against me doing that  since I'm a new bride 'note the sarcasm'  but I didn't budge and insist to help .

" She's resting , after your departure she was very stressed and worried and you know  what stress and  tension does to her "  mah sounds very tensed as if she's trying to hide something .

" Did you give her medications , I go and check up her , and probably talk to her "

I should really make rules for her about unnecessary stress and tension , it won't do her any good . Ahh I want to pull my hairs out , she's already stressing Lords know what she would  have done after knowing what happened last night. I chat tell , I'm not taking any risk with her health , but it doens't mean I won't do what I planned , I'll just keep her out of it. 

" She's sleeping now , I'll let you know when she'll be up , shell probably ask about you as soon as she opens her eyes "

Its a really nice opportunity talk to phoppo , dadi is asleep now  I should definitely take advantage of this . 

" Okay , and where is your mother "

" She's upstairs "

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I'm sorry for not updating after Eid as I promised but I had so much on my plate , which I still have but ive decided that no matter what I'll try to update at least 1 chapter a month .

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