ᴼᴺᴵᴷᴬ'ˢ ᴾᴼᵛ
ᴬᴾᴿᴵᴸ 12, 2000
8:46 ᴾᴹ
ᴿᴱᴰ ᴸᴼᴮˢᵀᴱᴿ
I sat at the table with Beyonce and already I could tell that I wasn't feeling this date, nor her. It was clear that Beyonce not only knew I was blind, but she also thought I was death and didn't have feelings as she continued to call the waitress over to our table and flirt with her.
"So would you say that I'm cute?" She asked. I could hear the waitress giggling, both of the two payed no attention to me what so ever. It wasn't till I felt that burning sensation in the back of my eyes that I knew I was ready to go.
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"Nika I'm sorr-
"Beyonce please, I just want to go home." I cried. She sighed and I felt her hands touch mine causing me to yank away. I looked the way I knew had to be the window as she drove me home. I couldn't believe the things I've been through tonight.
"Can I at least make it up to you?" Beyonce asked. I took a deep breath and shook my head no.
"No, can you please just stop talking to me and take me home, and once I get there, please lose my number." I said lowly. Beyonce sucked her teeth.
"Why you acting like this? I made one mistak-
"I told you I was sensitive when it came to those who I hang around! And for you to sit up in my fuckin face and flirt with that girl was hurtful as hell. Do you not realize I'm the type of girl who needs somebody she can trust more than anything?! I'm not saying you have to be perfect but I at least deserve your respect!" I yelled. Beyonce was silent afterwards as she continued driving. She came to a stop and I got out figuring I was already home.
"Nic.." Beyonce called me. I paused but continued to face my house.
"I'm sorry." Was all she could muster up and I completely disregarded it. She had her chance and she blew it.
ᴼᴺᴵᴷᴬ'ˢ ᴾᴼᵛ
ᴬᴾᴿᴵᴸ 13, 2000
12:12 ᴾᴹ
"So how did ya date go?" Robyn asked as she sat beside me at the lunch table. I wasn't really in the mood to talk, or at least not talk about that.
"What she do?" Robyn asked. It seemed as though she was already ready to fight from the sudden base in her voice, laced with a hint of aggravation.
"Calm down. She didn't do any damage, well if there was any I got over it last night. She just seemed a bit pushy and on top of that she sat in my face and flirted with another girl like I wasn't there. And for me to believe she was honest and true to her word, it hurt that someone could lie to me like that. I mean she was really wanting my me to trust her and my gut was telling me, warning me not to. I feel so stupid." I whispered the last part. Robyn was silent and I was nervous. Hopefully she wouldn't try to fight Beyonce. I can handle my own, sometimes.
"Robyn-
"I'm sorry you had to go through that. That's why I wanted tah come cause-
"Robyn you can't always be there for every situation that goes down. I mean appreciate how much you care for me and I love you for that. But in this case, let me deal with it. I don want you treating her no different than you were when y'all first met." I said.
"I didn't even like 'er when we first met." Robyn said truthfully. I nodded.
"So what? You still fuckin' wit 'er?" Robyn asked. I shrugged.
"Maybe. If she apologizes meaningfully-
"Apologizes? Nika what she did wasn't right, if she did it once she'd do it again in anotha' form of way. If she wants you she betta come correct, walk over hot coal or some shit." Robyn said.
"We don't have hot coal-
"I was speakin' figuratively." Robyn said. I gasped.
"Wha?" She questioned.
"You actually paid attention in English class?" I asked. Robyn smacked her lips.
"Whatchu talm 'bout? I always pay attention." Robyn said. I laughed.
"No you don't." I said.
"How would ya blind ass know?" Robyn asked.
"First off all, I told you I don't like when you do that. Secondly cause you stay talking." I said.
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Give me a minute on this. I'm still trying to figure out how I want this to go. Do I want it to go left or right, (bad or good)
