no strings attached || j.m.

7.

If it wasn't for James making sure I was okay, I could have been laid anywhere when I woke up from the drug dosage.
You see, my mother doesn't even acknowledge that I still exist. She got herself a new husband after my dad left when I was four. She even asked me to move out so that she could continue her life without having to worry about me anymore. I was 16.
James let me stay in his two bedroom flat until I managed to save up enough money from working to get a cheap one bedroom flat near his. James was already very independent by then, he always has been.
I guess it's easy to understand why I have trust issues and a never ending list of insecurities. You always expect your mother to look after you, to care for you and to protect you, but my mother threw me out when I was just 16, only just sat my exams and she didn't even provide me with any money to survive. I could be dead and she wouldn't even know. James literally saved me, not just physically but emotionally.
Yet again, here he is saving me. He's done this multiple times now and there's absolutely no way that I will ever be able to repay him. How do you repay someone who has saved your life on multiple different occasions? Including the own time where you were so determined to take your own life that he walked in to find you bleeding out from the multiple cuts that you'd carved into your own skin?
You simply can not thank someone that has done that for you. I can not thank James enough, I would take a bullet for him. Literally. I would. I know he would do the same for me.
Dragging me out of my thoughts, James walks towards me.
"Lish babe, do you want something to eat?" He's so caring.
"Please James, I'm absolutely starving. Shall I grab some movies and we can just have a lazy day?" I still don't feel 100% right now and I think that might be a good idea. Who doesn't want to watch frozen cuddled on the sofa with their best friend at every opportunity their given? I certainly do.
"Sure babe, I'm going to text all the others and tell them that you're okay, they're worried sick about you! You can stay here for tonight because I want to make sure you're perfectly fine, I don't want you scaring me again!" James states, as if he has absolutely adamant about what he wants to do.
I wrapped myself up in the duvet James had wrapped around me when he has brought me back from the hospital and waited for James to come in with the food.
This is where everything began...

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