Beautiful Accident

Chapter 1 - The Heart Donor

"Some of us were lucky enough to get a second chance of life from a near death. Some were unfortunate. Some just thought that it's better to leave this world. Someone just gave up life. While some are just patiently waiting, for someone to give them a chance to live longer. But, how would you feel if the only way to live is that someone has to die? And the worst? Yes, a lot could happen unexpectedly that you might can't even bear. But now as long as you're still alive, just like what others say, make everyday as if it's the last day."

'The story of your life has many chapters. One bad chapter doesn't mean it's the end. Remember life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful. So stop re-reading the bad one already and turn the page. Live well.'

These are my powerful mantra everyday. Ayokong ma'stress. Ang payat payat ko na nga, magpapakalosyang pa ba ako. Kahit napakahirap mabuhay, lalo na kung parang tinatawag ka na ni Grim Reaper. Basta, hindi ako sasama. Hindi pa. Kahit kasing pogi niya pa si Lee Jung Suk.

Hindi ako magdadalawang isip pa, na hindi sumama. lols kidding. Ayoko. Not yet.

Pag nawala ako mawawalan ng bida sa storyang ito. Kaya wag muna. Hehe

So there's me.

Every morning na gigising ako. Una kong makikita yung apat na kwadro ng dingding. Si mama na nakatutok sa kanyang laptop. At yung dextrose sa bandang ulunan ko.

(*sigh) So andito parin ako sa Hospital.

*Ambulance Sirens*

"Emergency na naman." *sigh
"Sana magkaroon ka na ng donor anak." Mom says.
"Maaaa.. Tss"
"I'm sorry dear. 'Di ko lang talaga mapigilan."
"Ma, hayaan mo na lang si Lord kung anong plan niya for me. Never wish bad things for someone. You know, every life is worth saving too."

Hayy, mom cries again as if mamatay na 'ko anytime. Hmp. But truth is.. I wished to die soon, or if it's anytime now. I am ready anyways. Ayoko na din. Nahihirapan na 'ko. Sobra na ang gastos ng family ko for my hospital charges. Masyado na 'kong pabigat.

"Ma, labas lang ako."
"Sa'n ka naman pupunta."
"As if naman makakauwi ako gamit ang wheelchair. And i can manage. Trust me. Go get some sleep. Tatanda ka niyan."
"You sure?"
"Yep."

*deep sigh*
Pagkalabas ko ng pinto.

(Hospital Staffs are running while pushing a hospital bed w/ a woman lying on it.)

"Babe, please don't leave me. Don't give up. Please save her. Please save her. God! I'm sorry. Please."

Pinasok na sa ER ung pasyente at naiwan sa labas yung lalaking grabe ang dugo sa damit at nakaluhod sa harap ng pinto ng ER while crying on his knees.

My room is just 20meters away from ER.

Naaawa ako sa lalake.

When i can't take the scene, yumuko na lang ako then umalis at pumunta sa garden part ng hospital kung san marami ding pasyente.

Yung iba tulaley, yung iba kausap ang family member, etc. Dun na lang ako pumunta sa medyo tahimik na side na maraming rose.

"Hey rose. Good morning. Naks, fresh na fresh kayo aa. Kamusta buhay?"

First of all, 'Di ako baliw.

*sigh*
"Buti pa kayo, maiksi lang ang buhay niyo pero atleast masaya kayo. Malaya kayo."

Out of the sudden, nagsituluan na ang mga luha ko..

"Sana poisonous na lang ang mga thorns niyo 'no, kasi magpapatusok na talaga ako pag ganun."