i'm planning on burning this town to the ground
flames erupt from my bedroom first
the place my blood sweat and tears had flooded
the smoke chokes out everything i never did
and swallows what i never saw
it burns everyone i ever loved but never loved me
it takes every moment of hesitation and silence
every step i took succumbs to the anger
the stares and jokes and laughter die
a pause in front of where this began
the time i cried from everything
and felt everything leave my soul
the fire that burnt out my lungs and heart and scarred my bones
will finally be able to leave its prison
maybe then my blood will become blood
and never purposely leave me
my hands never tremble from the raging inferno
and my body is one i love
the fire will start me anew
a being without smoke or flames
a phoenix to rise from the ashes of this
and be born as something else
someone with stars in their eyes and a voice of the moon
a rainbow in their mind and a bright heart
lungs that have never felt restrictions and move without a thought
i feel more like the sea
assumptions made on little knowledge
truths that won't ever be revealed
not until someone figures out how to dive deeper than ever before
creatures swim just below the sunlight
monsters and shipwrecks and darkness lay near
but the beach is so much more beautiful
so until the fire kills me
i'll swim in this ocean alone
