New Beginnings
Rowans P.O.V
Fabian, of course, follows me. I decide it's time to tell him. When he comes up behind me and hugs me, I'm surprised, but I accept it.
"I-If I tell you wh-what happens at home, p-promise not to tell anybody..." I fucking stutter. I rub my nose, trying to hide my embarrassed face.
"I promise." He says, and god I hope he's telling the truth.
"M-my mother...glass bottles..."
Damn that was lame...why can't I just go out and say it? His eyes widen. Shit...
"Your mother abuses you?" He asks.
NO SHIT FABIAN! However, thinking about what she does and what he might think of me because of it send me into pain as I nod my head. Another tear slips down my cheek, adding to millions of ones before. I fiddle with the bandages, re-wrapping them.
"Rowan...what..what about your father? And siblings?"
He's pressing too much...It's too much...he thinks I'm weak and my mother will do everything worse if she finds out I told somebody..
"No!!" I yell, not even realizing I yelled it.
Everything is dizzy, and I can't look around. I feel nauseous...I shake my head, and curl up, my breath heavy. He pauses, but I don't notice it, panicking as the walls begin to close in around me. The pressure in my chest grows and I break down in full tears, pushing away from the walls.
"Th-the walls are closing in...it hurts to breathe..." I say, barely registering him tell me to repeat after him.
I blankly do, confused on why he tells me to repeat numbers... Wait. 1, 6, 5, 9, 4, 3? Those aren't in order... it should be 1, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 9. I stopped panicking but didn't realize it as the walls stopped closing in. I hear somebody at the door and look up to see one of my best friends- Mariah.
"Does this happen to your brothers?" Fabian asks and I nodded in response.
"I won't tell...you don't want me to, so I wont.." He says and I hope he's telling the truth.
I hear somebody at the door and look up to see one of my best friends- Mariah.
"R-row?" She pants, walking in.
I get up, covering the bandages again, and hug her, avoiding contact with her wounds.
"We haven't talked in forever...what did your mother do this time?" Mariah asks.
I froze, remembering that Fabian didn't know that Mariah knew.
"She knows?" Fabian asks, and I wince, mentally kicking myself.
"Y-yeah...She came to my house when my mom was...beating...me and when nobody answered she went in.." I explain, and Mariah arches her brow.
"That's all you're gonna tell him? Then I'll say the rest myself," she says, turning to Fabian.
"Don't say what my father does!" I exclaim, not wanting Fabian to think I'm some whore for enduring it.
"Fine...But I know what her father does. When I had knocked at the door, nobody answered. I heard screams and cries at first but figured it was her little brother throwing a temper tantrum, but it wasn't. I walked in and followed the sound, and opened a door... After I saw that I closed it and walked away, trying to find Rowan's mother, her older brother, little brother and her. I found them and saw Ciel trying to block Rayden and Rowan from being hit by their mother, who looked drunk. Rayden was crying and his arm looked broken, as well as Rowan's leg, knee cap, and left arm. Turns out her shoulder was dislocated. I didn't call the cops because Rowan's mother saw me and threatened to beat me if I did the same. Her dad came out and took her mom back to another room, and I took Ciel, Rowan, and Rayden to the hospital with the help of Primrose, who had come out right before Rowan's father had." Mariah explains, and I wince again, getting lost in the painful memories.
Fabian hugs me, and to my surprise and rests his face in the crook of my neck. He pets my hair, and I turn to return the hug.
I slip my hands behind his jacket and he whispers, "You don't have to stay strong for me."
At this I break down, crying into his shoulder and collapse to the floor. He pulls me closer as I cry into his chest, and rocks me. Mariah kneels next to me, cradling my back to keep me from falling back and moves my hair out of my face in attempt to keep it from getting my tears and snot in it.
After a while I calm down, running out of tears. I sit back, staying in Fabian's lap, and sniffle then wipe my nose and eyes before meeting their worried eyes.
"I don't deserve either of you guys as friends...I don't deserve any of the kindness...but you give me the hope in my world..the kindness I don't receive at home, and the shelter I need to survive...you both are the greatest people in my world." I whisper, hugging them both.
"But you do deserve us," Fabian says. "You go through so much yet nobody knows. You care for your siblings, give them protection, and you don't get anything in return for it except tears, a drunken mother who abuses you and a father who does who knows what to you. You more than deserve us as friends, no you deserve better."
"He took the damn words out of my mouth! He better not replace me," Mariah smirks, elbowing my ribs softly, but not enough to bring pain.
This brings a smile to my lips, and for a while I'm in pure bliss, nothing bad just pure, real, happiness. I really don't deserve friends like them.
"He won't replace you. He just simply found a new place in my heart. And nobody," I pause. "Can replace him."
I bring them both into another a hug, a real, stupid, goofy smile plastered across my face. It felt nice, but weird. Then it hit me. I haven't been truly happy in years. This feeling of true happiness is something that's foreign, and I hope I can get used to it... I just hope it lasts.
*****A/N******
So I've been putting this off for weeks, however I finally found an Editor and a Manager, who both pushed me to upload by Friday.
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