All These Years....

4

Zach's POV
   I looked at myself in the mirror one more time, fixing any little pieces of hair that might be sticking out. I sighed and walked out of my dressing room, heading back stage.

   "Hey guys" I said with a smile. "Wassup Zach" Jack said with a slight smile. Me and jack talk but not as much as we used to. Ever since that incident he has always been a little distant.

   But, I completely understand. I hurt his best friend, I would have been mad to. The rest of the boys; Jonah, Corbyn, and Daniel, walked out of the dressing room and walked up to me and Jack. We all did our quick ritual chant and got in our positions.

    "Zach!?" I turned around to be met with icy blue eyes. "Hey K. Wassup?" I asked quickly, not wanting to miss anything. "Just wanted to give my babe a good luck kiss before his show." She said leaning up and placed a kiss on my lips. I smiled as she walked off.

   Krystal is my girlfriend. We have been dating for about a year now and I would say that I'm happy. But I'm not. I miss Mya, I do. But, with all these tours and shows and meet and greets I was forced to push her way in the back of my head. When I met Krystal all I saw was Mya. Her smile, her laugh, her humor. It was all in Krystal. So, I fell for Krystal. But to me it wasn't Krystal, it was Mya.

   Ya I know I'm weird for feeling this way but I have no choice. I am forbidden to see the one I love. "Hello earth to Zachary!" Corbyn said, pulling me out of my thoughts.

   I blinked a few times, finally coming back to reality as I was met with Corbyn's eyes. "Um ya sorry." I said, clearing my throat. We lined up as our Dj, Eben, introduced us to the crowd.

   The screams of thousands of fans rang through my ears as we jumped around. I was so happy for how far we've come. 7 eps, 9 platinum songs, 10 awards, and all in 3 years.

   I'm barley 19 and I've accomplished so much. You would think I would be the happiest person in the world. Making millions every time a song is played on the radio. But I'm not. No one like me is never truly happy. Money doesn't take the spot of love in my heart.

   Love is what I'm missing. Ya I have Krystal, she makes me happy. But, I'm not as happy as I was when I was with Mya.

   I laugh with Krystal, but I always peed my pants with Mya. I cuddle with Krystal, but I held Mya like there was no tomorrow.

    I kiss Krystal, but I kissed Mya with such passion.  There is never a moment that goes by that I regret what I did.

   Everything reminds me of her still, even performing. I was gonna quit this band. For good. But it was because of her I stayed.

Zachary Herron are you crazy!" She yelled. I shook my head as tears escaped my eyes. I quickly wiped the, before she could see. "I can't anymore Mya. It's to much." I said, my voice getting caught in my throat as I choked down my sobs. "No Zach. I can't let you. Giving up is not the answer. This...this band is gonna make it so far. Farther then you can ever imagine. Your gonna make it farther then you can imagine. These fans...I know it's gets hard. All the work for a boy your age. But, hard work never came easy. Life isn't easy. Your gonna go through some hard times, your gonna have struggles, times were you doubt yourself. But you can not give up." She said walking up to me and cupping my cheeks,"and I'm gonna be with you every step of the way." I fell to my knees, burying my face in her stomach. She reached her hands down, tangling her fingers in my hair. Tears escaped my eyes at a faster pace, spilling all over her t-shirt. I felt her slide down, her face meeting mine. "All the way baby." She whispered, wiping the tears from my cheeks and wrapping me in a hug. "All the way."

   So as I stand here and preform on this stage, jumping and singing to every song. I think of her. Of everything she has said. Every time I hug a fan I think of her, knowing this so what she would want me to do.