All These Years....

13.

Myas POV
   I tossed and turned in my bed, making my sheets fall to the floor. Not only was being pregnant uncomfortable to handle on a daily basis, it made it so hard to sleep.

   I sighed knowing that even if I tried to sleep I couldn't. Instead I got up and decided to make a tea and hope that it will soothe me.

   I walked quietly down the hall, jumping over the creaky step. As I made my way to the kitchen I noticed the light already on and a very tired looking Emma hovering over the counter.

  "Couldn't sleep either?" I mumbled. She looked up from her cup of what I was assuming was tea and nodded. As I got a little closer I sniffed in the sent of camomile tea.

   "Any leftover?" I asked. She smiled and nodded handing me the kettle as I poured myself a cup. We stood there in silence for a minute before I decided to break the silence. "What you thinking about." I asked. "You already know what I'm thinking." She said looking me in the eye, "You can see right through me." I nodded.

   "You felt so comfortable with him. What changed? You were looking so forward to getting married. And now?" She sighed and ran her fingers over the dent in her mug.

   "It's not the same. I was ready for marriage. I want it. But I don't think I want it with him. I was so hurt from Daniel. Chase...Chase made me feel happy again. I just don't feel that spark anymore. Ya know?" She said. I looked at her, nodding slowly.

   "But you miss him. And the thing is you don't hate Daniel. If anything you still love him." I said.

   She laughed, "I hate that you can always see right through me." "It's a gift and a curse" I said sipping my tea.

   "What are you guys doing up so late?" A groggy voice said from the hallway. "Sorry Alyssa. Did we wake you?" I asked.

   "No I woke myself up." She said walking over to us and grabbing a cup as well to fill with tea. She stood next me as we stood in silence once again.

Zach's POV
   It wasn't until about 4am when I got back to the hotel. I was cold, tired, and sad. The last thing I wanted was to walk into a quiet room where my thoughts would completely surround me.

   But, gladly (and kinda sadly) that's not what I walked into. I opened the door, trying to be as quiet as usual only to walk in and find Jonah along with the rest of the boys sitting on the bed.

   "Oh..hey guys." I mumbled not daring to make eye contact with Jack who was giving me a glare. "Where did you go Zachary." Jonah said harshly.

   I flinched under his tone. Jonah was the oldest, I was the youngest, meaning his harsh temper affected me in a bad way. "I uh. I went for a walk." I said.

   "Look at me Zachary." Jonah said. I slowly looked up at Jonah seeing his face formed into a harsh form. "I'm sorry guys. If I worried you. I just needed some me time." I said looking at all the boys.

   "It's ok Zach. We understand what's happening isn't easy. But, to run off like this..." Corbyn started. "We just don't want you to get hurt. We worry to much." Daniel finished. I nodded and looked back down. "The kid needs sleep. You can have my room. I'll stay with Jonah." Eben said.

   "No." I said quickly, "The last thing I need is to be alone." Eben nodded as all the boys walked out leaving me and Jonah.

   "Get some sleep." He said before crawling into his bed and turning of his light. I sighed, hopping into my bed and surrounding myself in the blankets.

   I turned around and shut off the lights looking up at the ceiling as sleep took over.