Bad At Love • Jariana Fanfiction

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I don't think I can ever fall in love ever again.

First of all, one of my many boyfriends, one always called me a bitch when I told him I never really liked his fuckboy friends.

Another time, we were dating for two weeks and he already wanted to start a family.

Three, the guy I thought I truly loved wasn't in love with me.

He was in love with cocaine.

And another one is when he had family problems so we had to break up.

I'm bad at love.

Sometimes I even panick into the relationship because things are going good, but then I just leave them and run away when things are good. I never really understood.

I remember I used to date this guy and he moved somewhere. He called me and called me because we had a long distance relationship but I've missed his calls for months... it seems.

I also remember that I used to treat one of my boyfriend's like jewelry.

Sorry to my unknown lover, sorry that I can't believe.

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I looked around in the clothing shop. I couldn't figure out what to get. There's so many ugly clothes but this is all I can afford for now.

I get my bonus check next week from work, so I'll have enough money to buy nice things. For now, I have to shop at the clearance section at Walmart. These clothes are hella ugly, but I'm shopping in the men's section since I want oversized sweaters and shirts.

I work at Starbucks, I'm a barista. I get orders from my customers and I make the drink. Recently, not a lot of people have been coming to the cafe. I wonder why.

"Come on honey, we'll get your dolls later. Daddy has to buy something for himself first." I heard a voice say as I looked around.

"But daddy, I want my dolls now!" A little angelic voice yelled.

"I'm sorry hun, this will take a few minutes." He replies.

I heard footsteps coming up from behind me. He carried his daughter as he looked through the sweatshirts with me. I looked up at the kid and her small brown eyes were staring at mine.

Her dad looks at me. His lips formed a smile. He's so hot, what a goddess.

"You're prwetty." His daughter said.

"Aw, thank you sweetie." I smiled.

He chuckles. "Yes, my daughter is right. You're absolutely gorgeous."

"Thank you." I smiled.

I looked through more and I found a sweatshirt that was a beige color. I made sure it was a small since if I got a large, it would've been over my knees. And the men's small is already big enough for me. I put it in my cart.

"So, you like shopping in the men's aisle?" He asked.

"Yeah, I like wearing oversized shirts." I smiled.

"I'm Justin, by the way. You?" He reaches out his hand.

"I'm Ariana." I continued smiling, shaking his hand.

"Daddy, I want my dolls!" She yells.

We both chuckled.

"Sorry about Sabrina." Justin says.

"It's fine." I said.

We both continued looking through.

"I'm going to bring Sabrina to the toys section." Justin says.

"Okay, bye." I said.

He waves goodbye at me. I then continued searching through. This time I went to the women's aisle and got jeans and things I needed.

Then I remembered that my niece's birthday is this Friday. She's turning 6 and she LOVES Barbie dolls. I went over to the toys section and bumped into Justin again.

"Oh, hi again." He chuckles.

"Hey, came here to buy some Barbie dolls for my niece."

We all walked into the section. I looked at some Barbie doll with pastel pink hair. I looked through the section.

Justin walks over to me. He glances over at Sabrina and back to me. I continued looking through.

"You have any jobs?" Justin asked.

"I work at Starbucks. The one near here." I said.

"Oh. I'm a stay at home single dad." He chuckles.

"I live home alone, with my dog Toulouse." I said.

I picked out a doll that had pastel purple hair. I put it in the cart. I look back up and his eyes lock with mine. We both awkwardly look away.

"So, you have a dog?" Justin asked awkwardly.

"Um, yeah." I said.

Justin glances over at Sabrina again and back to me.

"How old are you?" Justin asked.

"I'm 24." I smiled.

"Goddamn it, you're older than me!" Justin chuckles.

"So that means you had Sabrina when you were 18?" I asked, looking at Sabrina.

"Uh, yeah. It was a VERY tough year for me." Justin sighs.

I continued looking for dolls.

"Well, I'm guessing you and your baby mama didn't end on good terms?" I asked.

"Yeah. Her name is Selena. Very beautiful, but you're more prettier. We dated for a few weeks until I met her parents who weren't very fond of me because I was considered 'the bad boy.' Selena and I loved each other very very much but her parents wanted us to end things off. We decided to act like we broke up but we didn't. We both loved each other, so we took it to the next level. I was very stupid and didn't use protection and that was when we found out that she was pregnant with Sabrina. Her parents found out, disowned her, and she moved in with me. She had Sabrina but then her parents didn't allow her to be near me or take care of Sabrina so they had to move away from me. Selena was very upset and we made plans to see each other secretly again but we never did. I took care of Sabrina for a few months until I had to get my education back and graduate. So I did and now I'm here." Justin says.

"Wow, that's- wow. You told me everything and we just met." I said.

"Because I kind of trust you." He glances over at Sabrina.

"Daddy, I can't find one!" Sabrina yells.

"How about this one?" I asked, handing over the Barbie doll with pastel purple hair.

"It's perfect!" She smiles.

"Okay, let's go." Justin smiled, picking up Sabrina.

"See you."

"Also, can I get your number?"