Bad At Love • Jariana Fanfiction

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2 months later...

Justin and I have been good so far. I've grown to love him VERY much, I never knew that I'd be able to fall in love again after what's happened in my past love life. I've also grown to love Sabrina very much, also. I just hadn't told Justin I love him, because I'm afraid he wouldn't say it back.

Maybe it's time.

But I don't want to tell him.

I have to at some point or else happily ever after won't happen.

"Justin, babe?" I called out in our mansion.

Did I say we got a mansion together? Wow. Enough room for a full family of 100000.

"Hey mommy!" Sabrina runs up to me.

"Hi hun, where's your dad? We have to take you to school." I said.

"He's upstairs getting dressed." Sabrina says. "I don't wanna go to school."

"Why not sweet pea? It's your first day. You have to." I bent down to her level.

"Well, I'm scared." She says.

"There's nothing to be scared about. You just go to school to learn and know more about things. And after a few hours you come back home to your dad and I." I said, caressing her cheek.

She nods but starts crying.

"Aww, Baby." I hug her.

"I'm still scared!"

"There's still nothing to worry about." I said.

"Okay." She mumbled.

"Let's go." Justin says, coming downstairs.

We all leave and dropped Sabrina off at school. Obviously we took at least a few minutes kissing her all over her face. We then drive back home.

"Wow." Justin says.

"Yeah... our little girl has gone to school."

"She's growing up fast."

"Yeah." I said.

I walked closer to him.

"Justin-

"I love you." He blurts out.

"I love you more." I said, locking my lips with his.

Our lips moved in sync and he picks me up by my thighs. He carries me to our bedroom that was all the way up the stairs. We were ready to take this to the next level.

We both haven't had any sexual action- besides the neck kissing, for a few years now. So you know, we're kind of nervous.

Our lips moved in sync and he glides his tongue at the bottom of my lip, begging for entrance. I decided to tease him a little but he found a way to get in. I almost moan, feeling his tongue dance around with mine.

He pulls away, aggressively taking his shirt off. Holy shit. He unbuttons my blouse that I was wearing, revealing my black bra.

Thank god he took that blouse off- I didn't like it anyways. He nibbles on my neck. I scratch his back with pleasure. He bit my weak spot, making me moan loudly.

He takes off his jeans and then his boxers. He grabs a condom and puts it on, he undressed me. I felt anxiety and panic rush through me as I thought about my past relationships and the first time I lost my virginity to that horrible person who was bad at sex.

"Wait!" I yell at him, before he inserted himself. "I don't want this."

"Why not?" He asked.

"I'm not ready! I can't do this!" I yelled, getting up and putting my clothes back on.

"I'm sorry, I-

"This is going too fast. I do love you, Justin. I just- can't stop thinking about my past love and how bad I'm terrible-

"You're not bad at love, Ariana. You found me. I found you. We love each other." Justin says.

"I'm just- scared." I cried.

"Don't be."

I ran to the other room. I locked the door to make sure Justin wouldn't come in. I packed all my stuff into the suitcase until the door busted open, breaking as it fell to the ground.

"Ariana, don't leave!" Justin yells, pulling me from my suitcase.

"I'm sorry Justin, I'm not used to... things going good in a relationship."

"It doesn't mean you need to leave! I fucking love you to death, Ariana. And I'd do anything for you!"

I looked at the suitcase. I felt tears rush through. What if I actually left?

Justin would be broken. Sabrina would too. She wouldn't have a mom.

But Justin- I love him. This doesn't make sense, why would I leave him?

I'm so stupid. I'm a big fuck up. I'm happy with Justin, I shouldn't be leaving.

Justin hugs me from behind. I cried.

"I'm sorry."

"Shh, babe. It's okay." He said.