Who,resides in me?

Chapter Twenty-Three

Tsukiyama Shuu POV

    While waiting for my servants to finish do whatever they supposed to do,I saw (Y/N) turn around and take the alleys.Since our last meeting in the chapel,I cannot take off my mind from her.The taste of her still lingers in my tongue and I need it more.To be truth I do tend to on and off forget about Kaneki-kun's scent after I tasted hers.I walk out from the car,and walk faster following her.Maybe,maybe I can devour her today,bleed her a bit and take her with me.Thinking that sending me chills through my spine.I like how the image of her,her soft skins not cover by anything,I will touch every scars that she will maybe have after our fights at the chapel.I want to,I want her at my manor tonight,the image of her in front of me taking more further to her in my room.The feeling to eat her,turn to some feeling I want to hold her,caress her,having her next to me,alive instead of dead.My twisted imagination strays away from my earlier intention to have her so I can devour her,I am thinking what is wrong with me.That is it,I will get what I want by today,(F/N)(Y/N).
I saw a group of ghouls cornering her.Ahh,of course I will not let them take a sip nor bite on my lovely (Y/N) but her fighting scene too facsinating to even let me blink my eyes and miss any of it.Her body move gracefully yet so mesmerizing.I really need her to be one in my possession.The moment one of the scum pierce her body with those dirty hand,I did snap!How come they touch my **précieux!!My blood boiling inside waiting to burst,but I stop after her blood's scent filling the surrounding air.I been struck by amazing scents and left with watery mouth.I will tear apart those dirty scums,then (Y/N) will be totally mine.I will devour her,every single bites,every single muscle,every drop of blood.As I can see (Y/N) finally defeated in these scum's hand,I can see how they drooling over her and waiting to get started on her as she start to slide down sitting back to the walls.She staring down not fighting back at all.This s not right,this is not like when in our fights last three week,and suddenly I feel throbbing pain in my chest as she giving up her life.The pain feel like squeezing tight and pin sharp as she just let herself ready to be eaten.To imagine that she will become cold and lifeless make me feel ache much more,I feel like having a heart attack,if I will have one.I cannot accept the facts that she will give in to those dirty scumbags.I will not let it happen!Suddenly,I do not want her to die.I want her to be alive,those hunger desire of mine become twisted and I feel like I cannot decide what I want from her.I do not know what my desire and part of myself want.I want her,I want to eat her but,I do not want her to die.She must be alive.She have too.I must act now if not she will not be alive and I need her to be alive so,I can devour her more,not like this.Yes,I do think that seems to be legit enough for me to save her.
     Before I can even question myself further,the next moment I realize I have killed those drooling scumbags.I saw my hand,full of blood of this low lifes,too disgusting to even taste it I wipe it off with my handkerchief."Somehow I feel like you've been stalking me almost everywhere I go,Tsukiyama Shuu.",her voice sound crack and weak.Her blood pooling around her side make my hunger cannot be resist anymore,at any of this time I will end just eat her without wasting any minute.
    "We all know,you will eat me somehow.I have no strength to even standing up,so I guess I am easy prey for you now,Tsukiyama-san.",her weak voice again catch my attention.She is so weak to even talk,why do she even bother to talk?Human,just another bags of bones and flesh and seems to have many twisting emotions.I turn to her can see she is gasping for air,"I dont mind dying,at least I know I'm dying in whose hands.".Her voice getting softer and weaker,and I find it fascinating to enjoy her last moment before she will be one of my meal,will be most I will devour.She seems to be struggle to pressing her wound,I lean over her closer and touch her hand that keep pressing her wound,while she close her eyes,"Go on,I'm okay with it.Make,it painless,Tsukiyama..Shuu...Please..".A single tears slid down from her (E/C) eyes.Hearing those cracked voice with the only a streak of tears running down her cheek with a calm face make me feel guilty somehow.Those mini heart attacks come again when she say my name but much more painful until I lost my appetite.I always encounter people cry at their end of they life when their life in my hands,but this is somehow make my heart feel sick and it overflow with sadness with other mix feelings.To be truth,I become panic as she not response to me.What should I do,for a human?I hold her cold hand,cup her face try to wake her up but non manage to make her open her eyes.Her breathing become shallows,and her chest rising become weak.
     "(Y/N),**mon cher.Wake up,please.Open those beautiful eyes.Wake up,(Y/N).",I whisper to her as try to press her wound part but still  she bleed heavily.Suddenly,I become scare.Scare to loose her,scare I cannot see those beautiful eyes,her (E/C) yet so mesmerizing sending me to different side of addiction.I cannot loose her!What to do for a human that dying?I do recall we as ghoul can heal faster as she losing a lot of bloods,maybe my bloods can make her at least alive until I can get help.With my brain not functioning,I have this one shot and I do know that 80% that this will not save her but I still pull up my sleeve bite my left hand cup her face then place my bloody hand to her mouth."Suck (Y/N),taste my blood.",I caress her cheek as I realize how soft her skin makes me much more do not want to loose her.She become a trophy that I need to own.My bite marks become faded as it heal,I groan frustrated and bite again do all over again everytime it heal and when I almost cry frustrated as she does not showing any improvement ,I can feel a weak suck on my bleeding hand."Yes,(Y/N)!",I happily cheering up.I feel my hope rising up.I slowly cover her with my coat and pick her up like a bridal style,"Like,I will let you to die like that,(Y/N),".I need to go to nearest hospital!

**precious
**my dear