Who,resides in me?

Chapter Twenty-Seven

       You slowly touch a 6 inch scar at the upper right of your abdomen as your reflection in the mirror do the same.You let out a small laugh,thinking that you keep collecting scars since little,but this one is the worst among all your scar."It will take a long time fo you to gain that pretty skin again,(Y/N)",putting on your white long sleeves,you just sigh.You still have your hospitalization leave for about 4 more days before you have to re-visit the hospital for the appoiments,but today seems to be a good day to go out.The image of a soft red tender meat flashes beyond your eyes,your stomach rumbling madly.At least you feel like eating,even you keep on vomit and feel frustrated with it.You took your sling bag and phone,scrolling to see how many Kaneki's missed call that you been ignore.Total from him only is 15 missed call since two days ago and 6 text messages,maybe you can surprise Kaneki later by dropping by.But then there is 3 missed call from a number you did not know from who,you call back the number waiting patiently but nobody is answering.You do feel nervous to walk in public after few week in hospital,plus what if the ghouls mark you as their target?Even you feel yourself recover quite good enough except your tummy keep on rumbling but you keep vomit everytime food enter your mouth and you do feel starving,the rest you feel like a normal person.To be truth almost 2 days after been discharge you did not manage to keep anything that you eat down in your stomach,even the medication.You physically recover from your injuries,but you just did not manage to eat anything at all even your medications.
       The moment you step in the train is the moment you smell something appetizing,but nor can you find it anywhere.Turn your head to see inside the train,just few people not too many people will go out in 10am in the morning since it is not peak hours.Eyeing anybody if they bringing any pack of food make you more anxious,and not to mention so damn hungry.Your stomach start to twisting turning from rumbling hungry to sharp pain.You gasp and holding your stomach,anxiously try to find those tasty smell.All you can see is people with no trace of them holding any packets of food."Two more station,",you mumble and tell yourself to calm down,imagining you will get your hands on the meat.However your hunger take control over you as you try to focus on the image of raw meat in your mind.You clench your fist and bite your inner cheek,for no reason you not realizing that you drooling when a person walk pass by you in the train to find a seat.Being snapped out by a vibration of your handphone,unknown number flashes in your screen.You wipe the saliva that seems to be drooling out of your mouth and answer the call."Yeah,hello?(F/N) speaking.",try to sound calm as you can you just hear what the opposite site telling.Apparently,there is a slot on your hospital check up today,"I will come now.".As you end your call,you alighted in next station and take a cab toward main hospital .You need a logical explaination on why you cannot eat or got this funny feelings after you been discharge.