Jeff The Killer orgin and Bloody Fun

School in the Dark

       Liu was a Junior and I was a sophomore but since I was advanced I was able to take the same math as him at least. So I could see him than. Other than that I wouldn't see him at all throughout the school day due to our different classes and schedule. We had math second period together but when I went to go sit next to him a tall blonde girl sat next to Liu quickly. She gazed at Liu with hungry eyes. He gave a nervous smile as he scooted his chair away slightly from the girl. 

     I sat down in the front row towards the door. I wanted to be able to see the board clearly but didn't want to be the center of each other. We had moved to Tacoma WA, and so I went to Stadium High School. The place looked like a friggin castle and it was sort of overwhelming. I had a dark blue hoodie on that day with grey pants and black vans. Girls would enter the room and snicker as they passed me, some wouldn't even notice me, and I was ok with that. 

    Since I always kept to myself and did well in school it gave me time to observe my surroundings as well as dwell in the dark void within me that I felt trying to break through the surface of my skin. I noticed the girl sitting next to Liu adjust her shirt so that her cleveage showed more. Liu swallowed uncomfortablely and once again scooted away. Liu always had it easy when it came to friends and girls. That's why I couldn't understand why he was so nervous about his love interest back at home, of course she'd be head over heels. There was no one that didn't like him. He had a good heart and handsome face. 'Lucky...' I thought. I glanced towards the back of the room and saw a group of boys eyeing what society considered a beautiful girl in the room. Apparently there were many of them because they point to a girls boobs  or face and whisper to each other. I had never been attracted to girl. I didn't find them ugly, but I never felt the warm tingle of butterflies in my stomach when seeing a  girl, or the heat in my cheeks as love seeped through my human skin. In any case I focused on my studies and anime. I guess one of the boys took notice of my observing because as soon as I turned my head I felt a paper ball hit the back of my head. I picked up the ball and tossed it into the recycling bin. This time I felt a paper airplane hit the back of my head. I looked down and on the wing it said "Hey weirdo sh*t head, watch yourself." I sighed with annoyance and tossed it into the trash can. 

    I was slow to pack up and was towards the end of the crowd leaving the class room. The group of four boys roughly pushed me against the door frame as we were leaving the room. They looked at me and gave a large mocking smile. They walked away to there next class eyeing girls as they passed. I saw the girl who had been staring at Liu in class looking at me and laughing with two other girls next to her. I was not one to get angry often I always swallowed my anger like a dry pill, never feeling able to express myself, my usual numbeness resumed its position, but as it did the pit of darkness lurked in the back of my mind. I shrugged at them and walked towards class. As I walked away I heard her shout "Sucks that Liu has to have such fugly creep of a brother!" For a moment I stopped in my tracks; the void within felt larger and more entrapping. I swallowed the dry pill once again and kept walking to class. 

      The next few months passed by slowly and dully. Everything felt so plain, so clear and yet a blur. The classes here were very easy for me. Class was boring and dull. People were still of little interest to me. Anatomy class was the only class that I found interesting, it was amazing how the human body worked. Some part of me did yearn for companionship, but I felt like everyone was inside a glass box and I was on the outside of it; that all I could do is watch and never truly enter society. Civilization was a like a board game and I was simply like a spare defective piece. Never used, never needed, never wanted.

    The same group of boys would pick on my daily and occasionally trip me or shove me. Over and over again I'd swallow the dry pill of anger and other emotions into the bottomless dark void within myself. Day after day the relentless torment of the boys. The glares and snickers as I passed through the halls hung around my neck like a chain. Liu was oblivious to my pain and had no idea of how deep rooted it was. Day by day the darkness spread through out the void that was indeed my soul. The thirst in my soul grew and the darkness with it. Curving and twisting inside my body trying to break through my skin and be set free. This unknown feeling and thirst for something more beyond this stale bland world. So many people seemed happy and had goals. My only goals were straight A's and anime, and that only satisfied so much. My heart still felt empty and hallow, and it felt like it could never be filled because it had been enveloped be the unknown spiritual disease that had been haunting me for as long as I could remember. 

     Soon that would all change, and never had I imagined how much satisfaction would cost.