Well my fellow readers the reason i havent been writing at the moment of time is bc at home there is alot of problems that makes me want to die and kill myself or just give up on everything and quit trying however i just keep smiling just to make everyone think that im fine when inside i just cant take it anymore im always saving ppl from killing them selves in n my game but as im helping them no one is helping me even right now i feel like quitting everything that i dream of but even at school no one can see passed my painted smile the whole reason i started this book was to try and write it all out the pain i go though the choices i wish i could make just writing this now im broken not physically but emotionally i cant feel happiness,joy not even love i want to talk to someone but i cant but i cant keep strong i act like a wall for everyone but no one is a wall for me i even started to torture my self i havent been sleeping right if my parents offer me food i turn it down my love for drawing stop i even feel like i should stop being myself just live in pain till i die i run across roads every mourning and after school just try and end my self but i always fail bc theres ppl who need me and i just feel like quitting i cant do this ive put up with this since 2012 a year after my brother Scott was born im forced to act like and adult for my 3 younger brothers i dont even remember what its like kid a kid without worrys when i turn 11 i only get told im class with low self esteem when it came to the end of yr 6 all i could see was darkness but yet i stilled smile like there was nothing wrong idk if i even want to live anymore and keep going though this pain everyday
Well i might as well go this might be the end for this book idk but next time
C ya next time my scare lovers
~fnaf3girl~
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This is my life not yours
Teen FictionY/n is a 17 year old girl who feel like a puppet always being told what to be and what to do and how to be it or do it and all she wishes is to be in control of her life and be who she is meant to be and just when she about to give up hope she meets...
