unspoken secrets ↫ stenbrough

Chapter Nine

Unspoken Secret
Chapter Nine

warning.. this chapter contains some uncomfortable topics about sex and rape.

stanley plopped down on richie's bed, frail sobs still escaping his lips. without stanley knowing, richie locked the door. he then went and sat down beside the curly haired boy, wrapping his arms around his shoulders.

"shh, stan.. it's okay. just tell me what happened. okay buddy? can you do that for me?" richie whispered, looking at stanley and taking in all of his beautiful features.

"i- i just.." stanley mumbled as he slowly looked into richie's eyes. "i.. i was with bill.. we just.. we st-started kissing.. a-and we didn't mean to go that far.. b-but we.."

"you had sex?!" richie practically shouted throughout the whole house. thankfully his mom was passed out on the couch from drinking and his dad was nowhere to be seen.

"wh-what?!" stanley found himself blushing more than he meant to. "no! w-we just made out! a-and then his dad came in.."

"ohh shit." richie muttered. "what happened?"

"h-he shoved me off of bill.. and.. he called me... he called me ignominious.." stanley whispered, tears spilling down his red cheeks. "ah- i- i just... i can't do this anymore!"

richie squeezed stanley to his where stanley's head lay on his chest. "it's okay stan.. i'm here for you, okay? i always have been."

"i- i know.. th-thank you richie.." stanley whispered. then, he felt something slowly wrap around his fingers. he looked down, their pale fingers were intertwined. stanley found himself blushing heavily.

suddenly stanley felt an overwhelming wave of emotions flood through his body. he felt passion, comfort, and most of all.. he felt safe.

safe.

it had always occured to stanley that he felt safe around only bill, and no one else out of the losers club. but that wasn't true, he then realized. him and richie had been best friends since the third day of kindergarten. he remembered this clearly because he remembered how he was so small, and so lonely. he had no friends.. until that day at recess.. he saw a boy building with legos on the carpet. a boy who wasn't much bigger than stanley himself, with large square glasses that made his eyes pop. his black hair was very straight and laid down pathetically, and he wore the poorest of clothes that seemed like had been worn many times before. it would usually annoy stanley that clothes were unkept, because his outfits were always neatly put together. but now, at this moment, something about the black haired boy made him smile.

"h-hi.." the young curly haired boy whispered, sitting beside the pop-eyed one. "i'm stanley."

"richie." the black haired boy replied with a small smile. he handed stanley a lego. "wanna help me build?"

stanley felt his body go from cold to warm. warm with comfort. warm with happiness. "yeah! i would love to." he said with a smile so large his teeth were showing.

warm because he felt safe.

and at this moment, with his head on richie's chest, and his heart beating a mile minute, he felt safe.

"you okay stan?" richie then whispered, interrupting the calm silence.

"ah- i don't think i'm ever going to be okay again.." stanley mumbled, squeezing richie tighter. "i- i just.. i don't think i can ever face bill again.."

"of course you can, you're stan the man!" richie said, then chuckled.

a small, petite smile beamed on stanley's face. for once through his tears, he felt happy. he heard a small laugh, more like a girly giggle, escape his lips, which quivered no more.

richie then squeezed stanley's hand softly. "stan?" he whispered, looking down at the tidy, curly haired boy.

stanley then looked up, causing their noses to almost touch. "yes?" stanley replied in a hushed tone, blush rising on his cheeks.

"d-do you actually like bill?"

stanley was confused with the question. of course he liked bill. he loved bill. "bill's my boyfriend.. of course i like him..."

richie was almost stunned. his faced moved a little ways away. "your... b-boyfriend?"

stanley nodded, scooting his face closer to richie's. "b-but maybe his dad wouldn't want us to be.."

"how would that make you feel?" richie whispered, staring at stanley's lips intensely. his breath rested on stanley's cheeks, their noses slowly beginning to touch.

stanley shrugged, not paying attention to the question at all, but instead licking his lips and staring into richie's chestnut eyes.

richie wrapped his arm around stanley's waist and slowly leaned in, their lips connecting smoothly. their faces went beet red. richie pulled stanley closer than ever, deepening the kiss mournfully. slowly, richie begin twirling his fingers around the ends of stanley's shirt, starting to pull it off.

when stanley realized this was happening, his eyes opened and he immediately begin panicking. he felt his breath grow faster and his heart was picking up it's pace.

richie felt their lips unconnect rapidly, and stanley then shoved richie's hands away.

"wh-why the hell... wh-why would you do th-that?!" stanley begin almost shouting, even more tears bursting out of his sockets.

richie watched his anxious friend's face. "shh.. stanley, it's okay.. i'll make you feel better.." richie whispered slyly, and took stanley's frailing arms. richie threw stanley down to where he was on top of him. "i'll make you feel better.."

stanley's body begin shaking, his lip was quivering, and tears fell down his cheeks faster than ever. richie repeatedly continued to kiss stanley's lips, and before he knew it his shirt was on the floor.

"st- stop! r-r-richie s-s-stop!" stanley struggled against richie's tight grasp, squirming and shouting, but it was no use, richie wouldn't stop.

suddenly, the door was swung open. the two heads swung around rapidly to see bill and eddie. eddie looked at richie, who still had stanley's hands pinned above his head.

"richie.." was all eddie's frail self could muster before bursting into tears. "how could you?!"

"l-let him go, richie!" bill demanded, watching stanley's embarrassed face stare him down.

richie released stanley's arms and got off of him. with this being done, stanley let a sob escape his lips as he ran over to bill. bill wrapped his arms around stanley's bare stomach softly.

"shh.. i-it's okay s-stan.. i- i'm here.." bill whispered, taking his jacket off. he wrapped it around stanley's body and walked out of the room, leaving richie and eddie.

eddie shook his head and looked at richie, tears spilling out of both of their eyes. eddie's tears were from his heart brake, and richie's were from the guilt.

"i- i can't.. i can't even look at you!" eddie said, looking at the ground. he tried wiping his tears but the more he did the more fell down. "y-you lied to me!"

richie stood up and walked over to eddie, placing his hand on the smaller boy's shoulder.

"don't touch me!" eddie shouted, backing away from richie. "you said you loved me!" eddie begin walking out the door, his heart heavy. "and i was a fool for believing you."

richie was left in utter guilt.

chapter two coming next thursday, december 14th (: