THOUGHTS | PARK JIMIN [ on hiatus ]

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I woke up, unsatisfied with my sleep. I turned to the bedside table to look at clock. 3 a.m.

The fact that I only slept for an hour makes my anxiety worse. The room was filled with silence, yet my mind was screaming with thoughts. You could hear the bedsheets as I twist and turn, trying my hardest for unconsciousness to consume me.

I turned to look at the clock once again. 3:03 a.m. I groaned in frustration and I accidentally hit the alarm clock and fell to the ground. Resulting in a deafening crash. Minutes later, I heard a knock on the door.

"Minseo, is everything okay?" a voice asked. A familiar, soft and comforting voice.

"Everything's fine, Jimin." I tried saying with a reassuring tone.

He twisted the doorknob and pushed the door, a loud creaking sound echoed along with it. He walked into the room and sat on one side of the bed, his head turning to face me. He stroked my head, ruffling my hair as if he knew that it would calm me down.

"Are you nervous?" he asked with a soft gaze.

"To be honest, yes. I'm really nervous. I don't know what they will do to me when they see me. Those people haven't seen me in school for months. They also know that I'm close with your brother, which is my teacher. They'd probably want me to jump off the rooftop or something. And Seoyeon, I don't even know where to start with her." I said, feeling a lump in my throat.

"Everything's gonna be okay. And I'm gonna pick you up from school later, so go directly to the car park. Okay?" he said with a calming tone while I nodded my head in response. He kept on stroking my head and soon his humming turned into singing.

"Neon nae pureun gompangi
Nal guwonhaejun
Naui cheonsa
Naui sesang

Nan ne samsaek goyangi
Neol mannareo on
Love me now
Touch me now

Just let me love you
Just let me love you
Ujuga cheoeum saenggyeonasseul ttaebuteo
Modeun geon jeonghaejino geoyeosseo
Just let me love you

Let me love, let me love you
Let me love, let me love you"

As he sung the last lines of this unfamiliar yet beautiful song, my as slowly lidded, drifting into darkness.
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I woke up with an arm slung around my waist, my back against Jimin's hard chest, his head snuggled into the crook of my neck. I looked over my clock, realising the time. Feeling his warmth, I groaned, not wanting to get up from bed.
I then felt him shift and turn, eventually sitting up.

"Morning. Ready for school?" he asked, smiling brightly. The sun rays that was once lighting his face, was now dull compared to how bright and fresh he looked.

"Quite nervous, actually very nervous. I can already picture myself bring thrown water at." I said.

"Don't worry, I'm sure it won't happen. And if it did, which won't, you can just call me. I'm free anytime. Okay?" he said soothingly. I nodded my head and gave him a little smile.

"Okay! Now go get ready. It's the first day of school." he chimed.
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As the distance from the school decreases, my anxiety increases. Jimin slowly parks the car in front of the school gates. I opened the car door then he tapped my shoulder and I turned to looked at him. Unexpectedly, he gave me a little peck which made me flush. He said a little 'good luck' before I got out of the car. I shut the car door and stood there, staring at the school building. My breath started to hitch as I saw familiar faces. I felt my phone vibrate and saw a message from Jimin.

Chim Chim ♡: I love you.

Chim Chim ♡: Make sure to go to the car park after school, okay?

My heart fluttered at his message, giving me motivation to enter school once again.

You: Okay. I love you more

I hesitantly walked in the halls of the school, feeling everyone's stare. I put my head down as I continued walking, staring at my own feet. Surprisingly, no one's doing anything yet. My breath started to even out as I continued to walk to my first class.

I stepped inside the classroom, only a few students sitting down. I chose the chair farthest from everyone else which was the window seat. I stared at the view outside as the classroom started to fill up with students. Everyone, of course, sat away from me. The seat at my front, back, and right were empty. I didn't really care so I just continued to look out the window.
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The bell of the last period rang indicating that it was dismissal time. I slowly packed my bags as everyone started to rush out the door. As I finished packing, everyone already left. I walked along the corridor, surprised no one did anything. I got closer and closer to the gates, the more I felt relieved. I smiled internally until-

"Welcome back, parasite." I looked up and saw Seoyeon laughing hysterically, still holding the bucket as I shivered at the ice water she threw at me. I continued walking, remembering that Jimin had told me that he would wait for me on the car park.

I walked to the cars and saw a crowd of students gathered around one particular spot. I didn't really care about what was happening until I saw what they were looking at. Jimin was leaning against the car, his hair swept back. Just the way I like it. He was also wearing my favourite outfit on him. My heartbeat started to quicken at the sight of him. I stood there, watching him and soon we made eye contact.

"Baby!" he called ad he ran towards me.

"What happened? Are you alright?" he started to ask questions on panic. He felt my ice-cold hands and he took off his hoodie and putting in on me. He led me to his car, our hands linked with each others. I looked back seeing the shocked, jealous, and angry expressions on each of their faces.

"Who did this? Fuck it, I already know." he said with a cold tone.

He then turned on the radio, playing soft and gentle music. He started singing along to the song as he kept his eyes on the road, focused. And slowly, his melodic voice lulled me to sleep.
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A/N: I'm back! Sorry for not updating for so long. I hope y'all enjoyed this chapter ♡