THOUGHTS | PARK JIMIN [ on hiatus ]

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It has been a while since Jimin's birthday. I was all smiles, but it seemed to have faded as soon as the clock ticked 12, the next day. Each day was getting worse, each day I was going a step closer to the person who I was. Until the nightmare I've always dreamed finally happened. I was taking a stroll around the park, I saw her once again. I saw Kim Seoyeon. The moment we made eye contact, I lost it completely.

I pulled off a fake smile, acting like nothing happened. But when she left, I ran. I ran, not knowing where my feet was leading me. Apparently, I headed to the house. I ran up to my room, and to my bathroom and closed the door. Fortunately, Jimin and Mr Park weren't there.

The first thing that caught my eye was the thing that I was finding, what I was longing for. The shiny blade blinded me. I grabbed it at pointed it near my wrists hesitantly. But knowing that once I go outside, everyone will start abusing me again, like the past had become the present. Then, I slowly made cuts on my wrists, feeling the metallic red liquid ooze down my hand. I was longing for this feeling, this feeling that relieved me.

"Minseo, wh-" he opened the door and saw the pool of blood on the bathroom floor.

"Minseo! What are you doing?!" he yelled.

Unconsciously, I felt tears sting my eyes, threatening to fall as he wrapped his arms around me.

"Hey, it's okay. I'm here for you. Do you want to talk about it?" he asked with a gentle voice, a voice that I desperately needed a long time ago. Then, I hesitantly nodded my head and headed to the couch downstairs. I sat there waiting for him as he went to get the medical kit.

I stared at my wrists as I waited. It was filled with cuts, it's like my past. No matter what happens, no matter if it heals or not, there would still be a mark. I was soon shaken off my thoughts when Jimin sat next to me, holding the medical kit. He opened it and held my arm ever so carefully, thinking that I was the most frigile thing and started cleaning my wounds.

"What happened?" he asked with a worried tone.

"I saw her again." I said, feeling shivers down my spine just by the very thought of it.

"Seoyeon?" he asked. And my eyes widened at the fact that he knows her name. "Sometimes, I hear you getting nightmares and screaming out her name, begging her to stop." (A/N: Y'ALL NEED SOME FUCKING HOLY WATER)

"Today, I was strolling around the park, getting some fresh air. And then I saw her. We made eye contact for a few seconds until I broke it and ran away. It felt like nothing had happened, it was like it was just that day I got out from school with everyone pushing me around, treating me like shit. I started cutting." I stopped, taking a deep breathe. Stopping myself from crying.

"But before that, you seemed fine." he said.

"I tried my best to be all smiles for you and Mr Park. I didn't want to you to worry too much. So I wore a mask, a mask that could conceal all of my sadness and depressions. Making a whole new person. But I got tired of acting. Once the curtain closes, I take off the image and reveal my suicidal self. I was always tempted to cut but I didn't want to disappoint you. But seeing her once again, it was like yesterday had never passed. I'm sorry Jimin." I said, tears cutting me off. I couldn't hide it all anymore. I buried my face into my palms as tears ran down from my eyes.

"Minseo." he said, then held my chin and attached his warm lips onto mine.

"You never knew how much it hurt me when I saw you cutting yourself. You are one the most precious people in my life. I know this is too early but I think I like you and will you be m--" he didn't finish his sentence but I just cut him off with a kiss. Feeling all of my inside jump around and crazy butterflies fill my stomach, feeling electricity circulate my body.

"Yes." I said after pulling away. And once again, he cupped my cheeks and leaned in for another.

"Hey, I'm ho-- I'll just go upstairs." Mr Park said as he opened the door, coming home from work. We immediately pulled our lips away and felt both our cheeks pigment with a dark red, embarrassed. After we saw Mr Park go upstairs and heard his bedroom door close, we laid down on the sofa, arms wrapped around each other. Feeling each other's warmth. Then we soon dozed off, still in each other's arms.
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A/N: AYYYEEE! I'M BACK! I HOPE YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER. I WAS RUNNING OUT OF IDEAS. AND I MIGHT NOT BE UPDATED TOO OFTEN (MAYBE, I DON'T KNOW) BECAUSE I HAVE MY TESTS. FML. BUT THANK YOU FOR 100+ READS HOLY SHIT SJGSMSGJSHSJHSH! I THOUGHT THERE WOULD ONLY BE LIKE 4 PEOPLE READING THIS BOOK. ANYWAY, THANK YOU FOR VOTING AND FOR THE LOVELY COMMENTS. ♡