The Mixed Bag

2 and a Half Months Clean

I just realised that I am approximately two and a half months clean! Yeah, that's right, I haven't cut since August. That doesn't mean I haven't gotten urges, though. That doesn't mean that those two and a half months have been easy. Many times I just wanted to tear my skin apart. But I did not. And although there will always be bad days, there will be good days too. This, too, shall pass.

I find that on those difficult days, it is important to surround yourself with people who love you. Or, if that is not an option, allow yourself to do something that you love, as long as it is not harmful to your health. For me, it is reading, writing, drawing and watching movies. I've also tried to stop procrastinating, no matter how difficult it is. Trust me, that sense of accomplishment after you finish something is amazing.

I've also started exercising in small ammounts. Don't immediately start with running a marathon. I try to go a bit on my stationary bike each day. The more you do nothing, the more time your mind has to come up with dark thoughts. It's okay to have bad days, everyone has them. Just remember to have confidence days too. Those days when you look in the mirror and say, "Well maybe I'm not that bad." You are a miracle, and you deserve to be treated that way.