Love on the Edge

Chapter 20

I was being lifted of the bed , I open my eyes paranoid , gave up on faking my sleep , I looked up to Ryder's strong jawbone . one of his hand was under my shoulder the other under my thighs . he was walked into the mini living room and placed me down gently on the sofa .then kissed my forehead gently . he sat right next to me and handed me the remote. I stared at him strangely almost . he shook his hand to indicate for me to take it from him , he looked so sad , almost as if he regretted what he did . but I didn't want to forgive him , what he did was..? why do I even need to forgive him he didn't do anything wrong , I'm happy that he got attracted to me right , that's what I wanted right . I didn't even feel the tears streaming down my face until Ryder wiped my cheeks .

" look I wont do it again ok ,I should not have done what I did, I let my anger get the best of me"

I looked up at him still tearing , then gently lay my head on his chest ,I know that I shouldn't have forgiven him so quickly but I couldn't help it , this is the closest I've ever gotten to receiving an apology from Ryder.

I was in his arms ,falling asleep while he was with my hair , I felt as if I belonged with him yet he hurts me . maybe I'm just delusional .

I woke up in Ryder's arms for the first time in forever . I tried to get up but he was holding me down . I tried to turn around to get loose but he pulled me into him tighter.

"stop moving" he mumbled . I smiled and relaxed onto his chest . this is what I wanted . why couldn't he be like that all the time. we stayed laying down together for at least thirty minutes more .

"can you move" he said while stretching his arms . Aw I was getting comfortable , there he goes back to the old Ryder. he looked at my face and must have noticed that I was sad .

"I'm coming back Cassidy , I swear , its just that my bladder is full "he added with a smile then pecked my lips softly . I smiled on the inside then moved away from him .

I reached for the remote but stopped myself from grabbing it at the last second , I didn't want Ryder to think I didn't follow his rules and had built some balls , I didn't want to make him mad and lead him to punishing me . I wanted him to stay the way he is with me right now. I sat completely bored but content with a smile on my face.

He finally came back and sat right next to me . he kissed my cheek then grabbed then grabbed me by the waist to put me on his lap , his legs were in between mine's and his face was in front of my boobs. I was looking down him and him up at me . he had a slight smirk on his face . he then laid me on the couch and got on top me . we made out for a couple of minutes then he leached on my neck. I was in a world of ecstasy .

his tongue sliding again my skin felt so good , the little bites and nibbles against my neck gosh , it tickled me under . I started to grind against his leg I felt him smile against my skin. then all of the sudden he stop and started laughing. he then kissed me then handed me the TV remote .

I sat up and he lay down on my thighs, he went back to bed and I stayed up watching stupid shows . I didn't even know when I fell asleep I just knew I heard talking. I looked at Ryder an t. he noticed I was awake

"look , ill call you later aight ," he pulled out a cigarette out his mouth and blew out a smoke. I didn't want him to smoke but after all he was Ryder and he was the one in control, my opinion on him and what he does with himself doesn't matter to him .

  "I see that someone finally woke up". He had a slight smirk on his face which put me at ease . He took the cigarette and put it in a plate . He walked up to me and kissed my cheek. 

"We are landing tomorrow" 

"Huh?"

"We are getting off the plane tomorrow, you didn't think we would stay here forever did you ?"

"No it's just that .,. I .. never mind " he kissed my cheek again.

"You hungry?"    

To be truthful I am but ... I didn't want him to get mad and feel like he has to limit my eating schedule again. I want to say yes but I'm scared. 

"No" I replied lowly. We were quiet for a few seconds until he spoke .

"Did you just lie to me?"  
That question took me by surprise what do I say ? I mean I did lie after all. But what if he punishes me for admitting that I did lie .  I shook my head denying his accusations.

"Did you just lie to me again?" 

I give up , his too scary. I nodded . He grumbled then grabbed my face by the chin. My face was right in front of him but I was avoiding eye contact.

"Look at me Cassidy" I obeyed "don't you ever , I mean never lie to me again! You hear me!" 

I nodded and he relaxed and released my face .

"Good now let's try this again"

"Are you hungry?" 

I looked at the floor and nodded . 

"Great , what do you feel like eating?"

"I don't know, I'm not very picky".

"I didn't ask if you were picky or not, I asked what do you want to eat".

"It doesn't matter , pizza would be nice" I named the first food that came to my head because I didn't want him to flip at me again. 

"Good, what ever the princess wants , the princess gets" then he pecked my lips and walked away.