Mistakes of a Rock Star (Jensen Ackles FanFic)

10

I stared at the images on my laptop trying to hold back the emotions each picture had brought to me. Dammit I shouldn't feel anything towards the pictures. It was a job. That's all it had ever been but I screwed that all up with what happened. A loud knock came on the door jolting me from my thoughts. I slammed my laptop shut standing up to answer the door. Shit, Jared.

"I got all the shots," I told him as I let him inside.

"You are under contract," Jared reminded me.

"Well then dock my pay or whatever," I remarked handing him a stack of photos.

"It's not that simple, we need someone for his show tonight, and we can't find a replacement that quick," he told me.

"What do you want me to do?" I pleaded.

"Look whatever happened between you two, doesn't matter," Jared tried to reassure me.

"Yes, it does," I insisted as I sat down.

"Look I'm not even asking you to talk to him. I just need you to wear your badge one more time and take these last concert photos," he told me. I sighed. I had a job to finish as bad as I didn't want to.

"Fine," I caved. He gave me his goofy puppy smile and walked out. What the hell was I thinking?

The lights dimmed and Jensen took the stage. I had no intentions of letting him know I was there. I flashed my badge to the security guard as he let me on the back side of the stage.

"Hey," He greeted the crowd with his guitar. "So I'm gonna try something new tonight," he told the crowd. "I, ah, wrote a new song and wanted to try it out on you guys, what do you think?" The crowd erupted in loud cheers. I could feel him smile from the back of the stage.

He sat on the stool that had been sitting in the middle of the stage adjusting the microphone on the stand. The same soft melody he had played at his ranch filled the venue. Then the husky soulful voice followed.

"How did I let this happen?

The truth is it did.

We were so wrapped up in the fighting

That we didn't see it end.

I let myself fall even if you didn't let me in.

The lines are crossed

And I'm already here.

So what's the point in fighting what's already

Been."

Tears began to well up in my eyes, I was unable to focus the camera on him. My hand covered my mouth trying to keep the cries at bay. Was this about me? I couldn't focus on the words of the song anymore as the crowd erupted again once he finished the song.

"And yes, that was a song for someone special, I just hope she heard it," he announced and I could tell he was scanning the audience. I turned to leave the stage bumping directly into Jared.

"I can't," I muttered pushing past him. I felt like I had been set up. I ran from the backstage area as fast as I could. I couldn't let myself fall. Love was not in the equation for my life.