Loving you was my addiction.
I didn't need drugs or alcohol because you filled my void.
But your absence leaves a hole in me.
But I can't find it.
I look for you on the right side of my bed.
But it's empty.
I try to find you reaching towards your pillow.
But your head is not there.
I try to find you in the bottom of the bottle.
But I drank too much to even see.
I try to find you in little white lines.
But I lose you when my nose bleeds.
I try to find you in the smoke I let go from my lungs.
But you are blown away too soon.
You filled me with so much hope.
No void would have to be filled.
But when I looked for you one last time.
I thought I heard your voice.
But it was just a heart monitor when I woke back up.
I thought you were standing there.
But it was just a nurse.
I think my addictions are getting worse.
I tried to replace you
But I can't find you in anyone else.
You were gone too soon.
It could've been worse.
You could've cheated and broken my heart.
But your addictions over came you.
And now you left me.
In a hearse.
