Downfall of thy deviants child

Part 50: truth behind the wall

-wolff's point of view-
I let him live for the sake of my little sister and I hated it. I shouldn't have let him live he was the reason she was dead. I sighed lowly and brushed the leaves that were resting on the top of her head stone. "Well sis it looks like you were right about him killing you. I should have gotten the hints but i was too blind to see. Too deaf to hear it in your voice when we talked." I murmured as I fixed the flowers that I knew thy deviant had placed on her grave. I regretted not being the older brother that she needed but there was something else she hinted at and I didn't get it in time to save her. My brother knew more about her pain then I did and that killed me to the core of my existence. Even my own child saw the change in me and my brother after angel had passed. Sighing I stood up and looked at the grave once more. "You know she adored you." Came my brothers voice from behind me. "Like her rege and dearest Chris she had a place in her heart for you." I gritted my teeth as the truth smacked me in the face. That's what she kept hinting at, that I was one of the very few that had a place in her dysfunctional heart but why me? I turned to face my brother. "She told you?" I asked wanting to know. He nodded his head yes and placed the dozen of red roses with a single white one in the middle on her grave. "Well she adored you as well." I told him hoping that he'd understand that. "I know what I was to her and what we together as a pair were to her." He said looking me dead in the eyes. "We were the only two that knew the truth of her state, we kept her sane when everyone else ignored her." " I know we kept her sane but why dose it matter now that she's gone." He shook his head in disappointment, my younger brother always had a better understanding of the world around us and now it was showing again. "Always the child. Always too blind to see the hints and too deaf to hear what is being said between the lines." He said as he walked away. "You'll get it eventually." I looked after him in shock after what he said.  I felt as lost as angel had felt when she was alive; "lost as the ocean deep."