All my exes

Felt like i was forced

When will people stop telling me to do this. I thought to myself.

Its really none of their business what i do. I wrote in my diary. I feel like i should do it but i can't i've never done this before. If i start now will i ever stop?
I go to school and Melanie is there waiting,
" So are you going to do it? If you are just tell me i wont say anything," she says

" When will people stop telling me what i should fucking do? God stay out of it!" I say as i walk away, pissed.

Christopher the guy everyone kept trying to make me date him was charming and sweet but he was kinda a fuckboy. I would date him if i didnt know his past.

Mikaylah my first friend when i went to this school,was in class waiting.

" Hey whats wrong?" She asks.

" Dont even get me started!" I answer slightly yelling

Christopher was Mikaylahs cousin so Mikaylah practically begged me to date him.

A few weeks later i gave in, we started dating, except i never really liked him.

After a month of dating, my best friend Trinity caught him holding hands with the slut of the school. I was furious so i broke up with him.

He was my first boyfriend. And he hurt me. I started developing feeling i have never felt before. I actually liked him.

He started rumors that we had sex. I couldnt take it anymore so i started cutting myself. But things got worse, my parents argued all of the time and it was so bad i cried myself to sleep.

I had to go to therapy my parents wouldnt let me near sharp objects at all. They didnt even know it was partly their fault.

None of my friends to this day know about any of this.
I was forced to date him and i hated it. Drama comes out of everything.