Ideas And Messes [Monsta X]

#2

Hyungwonho

Summary:
When Hoseok was on cleaning duty in the library, he found a collection of journals. They were completely empty, but were clearly labeled on the cover. After some research, he learns that the journals are completely filled with invisible ink, and can only be read using UV light.

Hoseok really needs to find this guy because every page is practically a cry for help. Except, there's no name of who's writting it, so he has to use every hint and name, even if the names are only a letter.

Intro:
Entry #1: January 1st, 2017.
I saw my mom today. I don't even think she recognized me. I was walking in the store to buy milk because "K" said we were out.

I smiled at her, but she just looked at me like she was confused. I'm not surpised she didn't recognise me. I've changed a lot since I was 5.

University has been really hard. All I really want to do is sleep, but even that's been difficult. "K" usually lets me climb into his bed when it gets really bad, but since he's gotten a boyfriend, I feel really alone.

Yesterday I took every single pill in my bottle of sleeping pills, and I'm still alive. I'm kind of upset; I guess they aren't strong enough. It's a shame really. Even my own mother doesn't want me, and aren't your parents supposed to love you from birth? So, if they don't love you, I suppose no one can, correct?

I'll talk to you tomorrow. I need to sleep.

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Entry #2: January 7th, 2017.
Sorry for the delay. A lot has happened.  I saw this really pretty guy in the library the other day. He smiled and asked me if I needed any help.

I had a panic attack. I'm bad with strangers. I remember when I was little, I cried when my father made me go play on the playground. I don't like new people; I just want "K"! My father proceed to yell at me before slapping me in the face. I never said no to him again when it came to other kids.

"K" asked me if his boyfriend could move in with us. I told him yes because I'm scared if I said no that he would move out. His boyfriend is big, kinda scary. He makes me uncomfortable, but "K" is really happy with him. I bring them down, just like everyone else.

Maybe my dad will let me move back in so I can stop being a burden.

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Hoseok stared at the page with wide eyes. Who was this guy!? It seemed like every day he was having difficulties. Hoseok felt bad for him.

He sighed and closed the notebook.

He had to find this guy.

Note:
This is one of the fics where I don't know if I want to finish or not.
But like yeah thanks for reading lol