Ethan Nestor x Reader || Crankgameplays Imagines

- Much More Than Love -

I don't remember driving home, I just kept thinking about today. Ethan had come to my work, pushed me against a wall and screamed in my face. Although this side of him hurt me so much that I cried, he had an extremely sweet and loving side. The sweet side of him was my boyfriend.

I shakily closed my front door, no one was home. I didn't feel the need to cry like last time, I was just very shaky. I slowly walked through my house, and I felt nothing. It was numb. This was the second time he'd done something like this to me. My mum was the only person who knew he hurt me once before, and she kept telling me to leave him, but I just couldn't. I loved him. I loved him with all of my heart, I looked past his bad side because I knew how much of an amazing person he really was. My mum kept drumming it into my head that if a man ever laid his hands on me, that I should leave him. But he didn't hit me, so it's ok, right? 

I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket, but I ignored it. I didn't want Ethan to hear my shaky voice over the phone, so I walked through the kitchen to my room and put my bag down and got changed. I turned around after taking my shirt off and looked at my back in my mirror. I had a big bruise on my back, what would be my excuse this time? None of my friends knew about the first incident. Ethan had pushed me like today, but i'd fallen over... I sigh, putting a different shirt on.

My phone was ringing for the 3rd time, so I waited. I waited for half an hour, when I wasn't shaking anymore, then I called him back.

"Y/N! Baby thank God you answered, are you-"

"Ethan, please, you know i'm fine. I've only got a bruise on my back, but i'm completely fine. I don't want you worrying about me"

I frowned, I was worried about him. He'd told me before that when he was violent, he felt like he couldn't control it. I knew he didn't mean to take it out on me, so I never took it to heart.

"But baby that was such a fucked up thing to do, I-I can't believe I fucking did that again, I-I mean I-I- oh my God..."

"Eth, calm down babe. You didn't hurt me, i'm completely fine I swear. I promise you I would tell you if i'd been seriously hurt." I reluctantly lie, it really hurt when my back hit the wall.

I could hear him gasping and muttering "fuck" under his breath while I was trying to calm him down

"Y/N, please come to my house, now"

"Ok, Eth i'll be as quick as I can, see you there"

I rushed to get my shoes on and I rushed into my car. The drive to Ethan's house was short so he would be waiting at the door.

I parked my car in his driveway and rushed to his front door. As soon as he opened the door, he gave me a hug, holding the back of my head in his hand, which he'd never done before. I knew this was serious.

He put his hands on my shoulders, lightly pushing me backwards, and he stared into my eyes. I gave him the most comforting half-smile that I could muster, and his eyebrows furrowed sadly.

"I love you Eth, you know that" I said gently.

"I love you too Y/N, but that's the problem. If I loved you enough, I wouldn't do shit like this"

We walked into his house, and went straight to his bedroom.

"Ethan, I know you love me. You don't have to apologise for the shit you can't help"

He sighed, shaking his head angrily

"No, Y/N. I should know how to stop myself by now, this shouldn't even be happening in the first place. My mother called me again, that's why I was angry. She says the most fucked up things then I end up taking it out on you... fuck..." (I know his mum is probably an extremely lovely person, but I had to do this for the sake of the story)

The last few words were shaky, this was really upsetting him.

I leaned my back on the wall of his bedroom, as I watched him sit on the edge of his bed. He rested his elbows on his knees as he dipped his head down to run his fingers through his hair.

"Eth, we love each other. That's enough to pull us through this kind of shit, together. You're better than to let this dark side take over you, you shouldn't be letting it take over your mind. It's telling you that you're not good enough, but you are."

Ethan sighed and looked up, his eyes were already a little brighter. I'd managed to cheer him up a little.

I heard him mutter "I love you so fucking much Y/N"

He slowly got up and I stepped forwards off the wall. I uncrossed my arms and lifted my hands to his shoulders, then let them run down his upper-arms. We fell into another hug and he kissed the top of my head.

Suddenly he pushed my back into the wall.

He stared into my E/C eyes, as I stared into his hazel ones.

He'd put his hands either side of my shoulders, against the wall and he leaned closer to my face. My heart was racing.

He slowly lifted one of his hands off the wall and gently placed it on my chin to lift it up and kiss me softly, and I could feel the burning passion, he'd never done something like this before. He wasn't big on showing affection like this, but when he did, it made my knees buckle. A tear ran slowly down his cheek and I heard him whisper "i'm so sorry"

I lifted my hands to place them on either side of his jaw.

I whispered into his ear "please don't apologise Eth, I wasn't going to give up on you that quickly" I smiled.

I then swiftly proceeded to kiss him. He put his hands on my waist to pull me as close as possible. He kept one hand on my back and lifted his other hand to my jaw. The feelings we both felt were much different to any other time. It felt like Ethan broke his wall down a lot more today, and showed the best part of himself. We were already impossibly close to each other, but somehow, today we became even closer.

Ethan turned around so my back was facing the bed. He put both of his hands on my waist and pushed me backwards. I fell onto the bed and slid backwards so we were closer to the top of the bed, and Ethan hovered over me. He proceeded to kiss my neck, going upwards towards my mouth. We both smiled after breaking the kiss, and shared a look that showed much more than love.

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This was my first ever chapter i've properly written on wattpad! It's kind of cheesy but I like writing stuff like this. Please give me feedback, i'm eager to hear your opinion on my writing. 

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