ArtBook 8

It's been ahwile, hasn't it?

Oh boy
Where do I begin aha-

I guess an explanation would be nice, wouldn't it?
Well let's just say I've become-
Distant I guess, I isolated you guys from myself and I'm terribly sorry for that
I guess I just thought that since I was gone for so long, I shouldn't even come back at all

But then I remember about those times in the past, the great memories I am with all of you!! I missed that, but most of you are gone, and it's my fault
I'm just
Not who I was before

Just, there's something you guys need to know
Pretend I'm new, forget about me, forget Fury alright, just here me out, here's my new introduction alright-

Hi, I'm Espen or Pen to some, I like to draw and I have a facination with dragons and reptiles and art!! My favorite book series is wings of fire and I love cartoons, ones like SU, SVTFOE, and Gravity Falls, and I too would love to make my own cartoon someday and learn to animate. And also, I'm a transgender, a trans-demiboy to be exact
And I hope you guys would accept me

There it is, the cats out of the bag-
Oh boy...

Anyways, I guess that's another reason why I never returned, cause who I was before, WingsOfFury, wasn't me
Sure probably in some aspects they were, but in the majority, no
I'm not that person anymore, I'm Pen or Espen
And me coming back saying I'm someone who I'm not just made me feel prisoned or trapped
I was forcing myself to put on a mask to make you guys think I'm alright but I wasn't

I'm not alright right now to be honest, heck when am I alright or stable
(I sure did miss that font thingy tbh-)
I've got problems, but I'm now willing to face them and to solve them
Not thinking it'll turn out alright eventually and put it aside or hide it, no thats what I used to do, now I'm facing it

And I guess that another reason why I'm here
I miss you guys, I really do, and at time I want to come back
But then I don't know what I'm going to do if I come back
This is my old account
The place where I started art, have friends, learn things!!
But then I got this furture in front of me filled with new things that I would also enjoy
At the same time, I want to dwell on old memories, remeber the good ole times with my old friends and everything
But then I want to move on as well
Maybe it's just me in my old account
I just feel trapped again guys idk

I love you guys
I really do
We've went through a lot together and I love you guys for being there for me
I know alot off you guys already left and went on with your lives and I'm okay with that, I support you
Go do what you want to do, be who you are, just know I'm not mad at you for leaving, it was probably for the best anyways
I have no idea what this post is going to be to be honest, I had it planned in my head and now it went off the rails

Just-
Take a breather I guess
I know it's probably alot of information to throw at you guys
Especially with me popping out of no where and say "Hey I'm trans!!!" and all

I guess what I'm trying to say is
Do you guys mind me leaving or staying?
And if I stayed, would you guys ever see me as Pen instead of Fury? Even if it takes awhile?
And if i do leave and you guys still want to see my content, I could always put up links
Heck, I'm starting to post more often then I did to my other old dead accounts
Just
Give me your honest answer
Please