I don't know if you can hear this
I don't if you can see this
I don't know if even care
Last time I checked I don't know what happiness feels in your chest
only the exchange of breath, one to the next, just stepping forward
on foot in front of the other
Just head on, straight into another collision nearly missing rewinding and replaying
Relapsing into relapse I got stop each breath and I'm back stuck trying to put on front of another
I stand shaking not knowing which reality is replaying
Breathing and sleeping have stopped being a necessity but only motions that I wonder why they haven't stopped yet
And I think that there is a trapped door still unlocked in the corner of my mind.
Even though I know that each time I reach for it
I slip back into rewind
back into the crowded fear
I am paralyzed and have no way out
