I Hate My Life? • Jachary AU

Chapter 1

ZACH

I groan as I hear my alarm clock and roll out of my bed at five thirty in the morning to turn it off. Time to get ready for school.

I get dressed in like five minutes but takes me forever to do my hair just the way I like it, styled up. I look in the mirror before I head out to catch the bus. I smile hopefully boosting my self confidence.

On the bus I have an conversation with Jack. He is what I call an "acquaintance." He is nice and listens to what I have to say but he is not like the one I have a crush on. Now let me think about my crush for a moment because damn. That boy is so fine. His hair is so nice. A bunch of curls flopping over his head. Those beautiful brown eyes. He also has the smile of an angel but that's when he does smile not at me though like no one ever smiles at me really.

Oh did I mention his name was also Jack like my acquaintance but way hotter and more my type. Jack is an overly cliche human being. He gots the looks, the athletic ability for mainly basketball, he is also popular. Oh yeah did I mention he has a girlfriend. Yeah she is stunning, her name is Addison but kinda irrelevant to me.

Oh yeah if it wasn't obvious I'm gay.One of the many things I hate about my life. It makes me lie awake at night crying over that. Yeah I'm pretty weird. Oh yeah another thing about me is I'm pretty much a loner except the two friends I got. Their names are Corbyn and Jonah. I feel bad because they're are together so I am pretty much the third wheel. So I try to avoid them when their together because I always feel left out.

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We finally arrived at school and I already had two classes already. I pretty much paid attention to class and talked to Corbyn. This is the class I always get nervous about going to because he is in this class.

Also the fact that this class is also PE so I get to see him be hot and sweaty sometimes. Oooh dirty thoughts. Also Corbyn is in this class but half the time he is texting Jonah because Jonah has a free period. Sometimes Corbyn ditches me to go be with Jonah to have fun in the bathroom if you know what I mean.

"Hey look how cute Janiel are," Corbyn says while sitting beside and nudging my shoulder. My eye twitches and I boil in anger but don't show it. So Corbyn and Jonah have been shipping Jack and Daniel. I haven't told them about my crush on Jack because they would make fun of me for it or so I think.Daniel is Jack's best friend and did I mention they're also touchy with each other. Like honestly I think Daniel has a crush on Jack sometimes and makes me so mad the attention Jack gives him. I literally want to scream look at me but I don't want to draw a lot of attention to myself.

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It's the end of the day. Yay. I don't go home yet though. This is where I go sit on the bleachers in the gym. I sit at the top bleacher in the far corner where no one can really sees me. There are some people here but not many. The boy's basketball team doesn't have practice today but the cheerleaders do. I don't even know why I'm here but I just like to come me here every day.

He's here today. I should of known because he practices literally every day. I watch him get all sweaty and it makes me smile. I bite my lip looking at him and then he takes his shirt off woah I did not expect that but I'll take it. I also hear the cheerleaders cheer him on even though they're suppose to be practicing.

He has been practicing for over an hour and I'm still here. I need to leave but I never want to stop watching him. That's when his girlfriend, Addison comes up from behind him and she kisses him. It looks slow and sadly passionate. That's when I pick up my stuff and head to the door.

I go straight home but it's sad I know I'll cry myself to bed like I do every other night. I always stressing about the small stuff and that's when I think about him. The same guy who can never like someone like me. The loner who craves attention but such a pushover. As I cry I repeatedly tell myself, "I hate life."