Smile • Kim Namjoon

Chapter 10

It was half past 10AM and Namjoon was sitting by himself on a rock, staring off at the sky.

I sat beside him and sighed, "I'm sorry Namjoon..."

He looked towards me and made eye contact then looked away without saying anything.

I nodded to myself. Why would he even want to talk to me? I'm so dumb for doing that to him...

Namjoon chuckled softly, "I know exactly what you're thinking." He looked at me, "I'm so dumb, why would he want to talk to me?"

I tilted my head, "B-but how?"

He shrugged and rested his head on my shoulder, "It's really fine..." he breathed, "As long as you're happy, I knew cooking wasn't really your favorite thing so I didn't go looking for you."

I frowned, "But Joonie-"

"Ah I miss that nickname..." he smiled and interrupted me.

He cupped my cheeks, "Stop apologizing, stop feeling bad, and stop being so negative." He removed his warm hands from my face and poked my forehead, "You're supposed to be the laugh of the group."

I nodded and stayed quiet, "Hey Namjoon?"

"Yeah?"

"Why don't you and Hoseok get along?" I instantly regretted asking him that question.

"Well..." he sighed, "My little sister liked Hoseok a lot..." he began, "one thing led to another and Hoseok ended up hurting my sister really badly."

I nodded, even though I've been friends with them for so long I haven't heard about this.

"One day my sister saw Hoseok kissing another girl... on their one month anniversary." Namjoon looked down as he kicked a pebble, "She took it very personally because she thought Hoseok was 'the one' and that he would make her happy..." Namjoon felt a tear run down his cheek. "She killed herself because her heart was so damaged from past events but Hoseok made it better for a short while until he ruined it and stabbed her one last time."

I looked at Namjoon and wiped his cheek with my thumb, "So why blame yourself?"

He shrugged and looked in my eyes, "because I couldn't bring myself to blame my best friend at the time..." he tried so hard to hold in the tears.

I embraced him in a hug as he quietly sobbed into my shoulder. I felt bad, Namjoon and Hoseok were best friend since they were little. It must've hurt Namjoon so much since that incident, but it must've hurt Hoseok at the same time.

"You tried your best..." I whispered into his ear as his sobs got quieter.

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A/N: so that was a long haitus but I'm back!